Forever N ever (Book 13 in the Forever Series)

Chapter 16

Nick

I was doing pretty well with keeping busy, so I wouldn't be moping about my failed marriage. I was doing phone interviews to promote my song with Skye & I was always writing new music. After seeing Demi with JD on the Ferris wheel, on our anniversary, I poured my heart out to Skye in the studio, then she poured her heart out to me & we ended up writing an incredible song. The song did so well, we went into the studio together, again, several times & wrote a bunch of partial songs. We had music written for a few songs without lyrics, then had some lyrics written that didn't have music yet. Of course, none of the music & lyrics fit together, so we decided we would keep writing until they were all complete songs.

The day after Halloween, I had a session with Dr. West, which was the second time I had met with her since Demi started dating JD. I knew I needed to talk to her or I'd go insane & it definitely helped me deal with everything I was feeling, in a healthy way. I was opening up to Dr. West about how I felt with Demi moving on & at the end of my session, Dr. West leaned forward, her head tilted a little.

"Next time, I want to go back to before you were unfaithful. We really didn't explore that enough & I really think we need to."

"We do? Why?"

"Because I think you need clarity & Demi needs to know, too. I have some thoughts on why you were unfaithful to her."

My eyebrows went up curiously. "Really? Other than the fact that another woman had me convinced my wife was cheating on me?"

Dr. West let a breath come out of her nose as she put her recorder down. "You really had no reason to not trust Demi, so I think there is more to it. Something deep down that you may not even realize is there. Something that made you believe someone you barely knew over your own instinct about the woman you've been in love with most of your life. And it needs to be talked about or it will keep causing you to make horrible decisions."

I let out a nervous laugh as I flinched. "Wow. Then yea, we definitely need to talk about it."

"I will see you in a few weeks then."

I stood up & shook the doctor's hand. "Okay. See you then."

The morning of Delaney's birthday I woke up feeling the same way I did every year. Sad. This year, though, it was even more depressing. I woke up alone & my bed felt larger than ever before since Demi wasn't in it with me, like the years before. I would always wake up & the memories of that day would hit me so hard that I would roll over & pull Demi into my arms, since she was usually already awake, crying. That morning, the memories from thirteen years before filled my head & made my chest ache, but the pain was more excruciating because I knew I wasn't going to see Demi at all that day. The fact that she was spending the day with JD made me absolutely crazy. I knew I had to keep busy doing anything that would keep my mind off of the significance of the day, but also keep my mind off of Demi being with JD on the day we lost our daughter.

I had my coffee & breakfast, then headed to the gym to meet Joe. We worked out, then went to play golf before we were going to grab some lunch. It helped being with my brother because he never failed to make me laugh. He was great at keeping my mind off of things I didn't want it to be on.

"So, how are things going with all your lady friends?" Joe asked, leaning on his club as I walked to take my shot.

"Fine." I let out a short laugh.

"You fucked any of them yet?"

I got to the tee, looked at my brother with an eye roll & he flashed me one of his famous smirks. "Nope."