SOMEONE I KNOW

Sana's POV

Sana:

Present:6

I was flipping a wedding magazine when I heard a knock on my bedroom door.Recently,I see a lot of bridal magazines in random places of my house.I wonder if my mother is secretly trying to say something.

The door creaked open and my mom stepped in.She smiled faintly and sat on the edge of my king sized bed.I closed the magazine which I was reading to give her my full attention.

"Why are you locked up inside your room all day baby?!"she asked after looking at me for a good two minutes.

"Ah..Its nothing mom.Just admiring these beautiful bridal costumes."

"Awww..Am sure one day you are gonna be the most beautiful bride I have ever seen,my darling..!"She beamed with a warm smile and hugged me.I felt a ease within my heart.The floral scent of my mom's perfume soothed me as it always did from my childhood.I realised how badly I missed her during those days away in college.

After that convo with my sister am trying my best to be civil and happy.I don't want to hurt them anymore.

My mother continued.

"Sana dear..Your dad suggested why don't you start practising your dentistry?!Are you planning to study further?"

"No mom..Actually I thought the same.Am bored to death from dawn to dusk.So why not I hunt for a job in some near by clinics for starters?!"I asked.Yeah,thats true.My daily routine is so boring and my year planner is almost blank.

"Hmmm..That will be nice and actually you can have some fun in meeting new people and making friends..!!So..go ahead!!Once your dad comes home today, talk to him about it."My mom said with pure relief in knowing that am not going to spend the rest of my days loathing around the house jobless and with a sullen face.

She left after reminding me that we need to go grocery shopping today.I loved those outings with my mom.So I decided to take a shower and get ready.

When I stood beneath the cold water washing all over my skin,my mind involuntarily thought about him.I closed my eyes to imagine something else and distract myself but everything failed me.My mind was so stubborn that it wanted me to remember only those eyes and that smile for now.

I remembered those bliss filled days when I never even cared about anything else but him and his happiness.The days we spent only laughing and loving.Only happiness mattered.I thought when and where we went wrong?!It was a perfect love story,but what happened?!Why?!Was it me or him?!All those questions swirled inside my head making it throb in pain.The very first day I cried because of him flashed as if it was yesterday.Sooo crystal clear in clarity.

The feeling what you get when someone says that it was accidental after stabbing you with a knife directly on your chest.Thats how I felt when Arshad started acting differently and ignoring me but said he is unaware of any trouble in our 8 month relationship.

A Wednesday morning,I was going through the morning paper when he called.

"Hi darling.."I said cheerfully.

"Hi" he said plainly and I immediately noticed that he is not being his usual self.

"How are you dear and what are you doing?"I talked calmly hiding my rising anxiety.

"Good.Am a bit busy.Just wanted to return your call.Why have you called last night?" he asked.

Even though we had our ups and downs like every relationship,we never talk to each other like formal.We shout,argue,fight..but once settled,we forget it and return back to our normal crazy lovely selves.He has never used this tone while talking to me.Sometimes I can even see him grinning from ear to ear through the phone when we talk.But now,he is acting indifferent and I cant put my finger on anything of a possible guess.

"I just felt like talking to you.So called..you slept early?!"I tried to be casual.

"Nope.Had some work..so couldn't answer.Sooo...how are you?" he asked in the same icy tone.

"Finally!!You remembered to care!!Am fine..and how are you?"I asked again to know if he is sick or something.

"Am fine.I answered that earlier." he said clearly irritated.

"Are you sure that you are alright?!"I asked hesitantly debating within my mind to ask this or not.I don't know why my stomach ached badly and I felt like throwing up.I felt so scared for the first time to ask him something.I think I was afraid of his answer.

After a moment of silence,he replied.

"Yeah..am fine.why not?!"

"Okay..Just asked."I said.But something inside me felt disturbed.

"Aren't you going to college?" he asked.I could see that he is struggling to keep the conversation going.

"No.I've already told you that its a holiday today due to strike.You don't remember?!"

"Oh..I forgot.."he said.

I knew then that he is not into the talking now.His mind was occupied with somethingelse.But he is hiding that from me.why?

"Dear..Even though you say that you are perfectly alright,my heart doesn't feel satisfied with that answer.So please,whatever it is,how bad it may be..just tell me.I'll do whatever it takes to make you happy again."I said almost pleading him to stop pretending okay with me.

"Hey..There is nothing to tell.Thats why am not telling anything.Am alright!!Okay?!Is that clear??And I don't lie to you.If you cant believe my words,just don't.But for God's sake,don't make a fuss now!"He snapped with anger bubbling in his voice and hung up the call abruptly,without even listening to what I had to say.I felt my heart clenching in hurt and my eyes glassed with tears.

'what happened?!What did I do?!Why suddenly he is behaving this way?!Whats the fault on my side?!'.My mind was racing with thoughts,but I cant figure it out.

I left my phone where I was sitting and fell on my bed with a thud.Within moments I tasted my own tears.That pain was excruciating.I can feel my eyes burning with sudden anger and constant tears.I couldn't help it.I never expected this from him.NEVER!That was the first time I had tears in my eyes caused by Arshad.That day was followed by so many tear filled days which was far more worser than this.

I suddenly opened my eyes and I am already trembling in shower.I sighed loudly.When am I going to get over this and when will this constant flashback replays stop playing in my mind?!I shook my head to clear away the thoughts and got out of the shower.After drying myself,I wore a yellow top with white full skirt.After Styling my hair and applying a glint of lip gloss and mascara,I came downstairs.My mom was already waiting for me and we left after having a delicious lunch.

We finished shopping by 4pm and planned to have some coffee as there is still some time for my dad and sisters to come home.It was a relaxed 'Mommy-daughter' time.We talked and laughed like old buddies and earned some weird looks.I almost forgot my worries for some few minutes.Thats what a mother,ONLY a mother can do.Whatever the problem maybe,a mother can always make you over come it easily and make you feel secure.

We returned home energised from the coffee and the talks.The day can not be more perfect than this.It was then I decided that I should start seeing the positive side in my life.I should start the 'self-healing' process.I made a mental note to talk with dad about the job once he come home.

But whenever I feel that my life is finally heading in somewhat correct direction,it will take a sudden diversion and ruin everything.Thats what happened when I talked to my dad.
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Author's note:Hi friends..So finally the wait is over!!Picture of SANA and ARSHAD on the top.Keep reading and please vote and comment..!!Your support means a lot to me..take care..;))