𝚊𝚜𝚑𝚊𝚗𝚗𝚒𝚎

𝕤 𝕖 𝕧 𝕖 𝕟 𝕥 𝕖 𝕖 𝕟

annie leblanc
asher has been home 1 week. i havent really seen him much because of my dad finally being home during the day and i wanna spend some time with him. today is like any other saturday. i wake up and take a shower. i put my hair in two french braids and dont put any makeup on. i get dressed in highwaisted black skinny jeans and a black and white nike windbreaker. under that im wearing a plain black spaghetti strap tanktop. i put my black vans on and go downstairs to see my dad.

bi:hey annikan. are you planning on going anywhere?
an:not right now but probably later, why?
bi:i need to tell you something...
an:okay?
bi:sit down

as he says that he pats the seat next to him at our kitchen island. i walk over and sit next to him.

an:what is it?
bi:your mom and brother didnt die how you think they did...
an:what do you mean? didnt they both die from an undetected heart problem in their sleep?
bi:no...that is how your brother died but not your mom.
an:well how did my mom die then?
bi:she killed herself.
an:why?
bi:she had post pardum from hayley being born and she just did it. she left this note though...

he pulls an envelope out of his pocket and slides it across the island to me. i grab it and open it to see her suicide note. and me being the stupid person i am, read it.

'dear annie, caleb, hayley, and billy

im so sorry for doing what i did. i love you all so much but i cant handle the pressure the world is forcing on me right now. so for that i wrote this as my final goodbye. know that is wasnt and never will have been any of your faults. its only mine and this is how im dealing with it. sadly i wont be able to see my 3 babies grow up to be the beautiful and handsome adults they will be but you will all be better off without me. i love you all so much.

~katie leblanc/mommy'

my heart broke reading that. i got tears in my eyes and i slammed the paper onto the island.

an:why didnt you tell me sooner?
bi:i didnt know if you could take it. but now, your an adult. your getting married for gods sake.
an:your pathetic. all along i thought you were a good guy. the best dad ever. but i was wrong. what type of sick person hides their wife's suicide from her own damn kids?!
bi:im sorry...
an:sorry doesnt cut it.

i realize its raining outside but i dont care. i storm out of the house before im able to grab anything. even my car keys. i just run and run and run until i reach ashers house. even though i am wearing a windbreaker im still soaking wet. i knock on the door and asher answers. i guess its pretty obvious im crying because he immediately pulls me into a hug.

as:what happened?
an:my dad. he lied about my moms death. i just left. with no where to go and i ended up here.
as:its gonna be okay. come inside. lets get you cleaned up and warm.
an:o-okay

he grabs my hand and brings me up to his room. i change my clothes and then wear one of his sweatshirts.

as:so tell me the full story
an:he let me read her suicide note. he lied to me for 18 years. i cant believe him.
as:you can stay here for awhile. until your ready to go back there.
an:but i dont have much clothes or literally anything here.
as:we will go back to your house and get everything you need. you dont even have to look at your dad if you dont want to.
an:okay. can we do it tomorrow though? i dont want to go back there for the rest of the day.
as:of course. anytime. now. what do you want to do?
an:idk. but i do have to finish babyshower planning for kenzie. i know the gender.
as:dont tell me. i want to wait. but i can help you with the planning.
an:okay, its all on my computer but some is on my phone so we can do that.
as:okay.

we did babyshower planning for the rest of the day. to you that may seem boring but it was exactly what i needed. asher makes everything fun and he makes me happier than anyone else. the next morning i woke up with my head on ashers chest. he was shirtless and i was wearing like 2 layers. he was asleep so i quietly got out of bed and took a shower. when i came back out he was laying in bed playing on his phone.

an:morning babe
as:good morning angel
an:when can we go to my house and get my stuff? i wanna get it done and over with.
as:whenever your ready
an:im already ready. its more like when your ready
as:i just need to put a shirt on
an:i would prefer you dont but since we are going out in public i guess its okay.
as:your such a nerd

he laughs and i get a fake offended look on my face. after our little play fight asher put a sweatshirt on and we went back to my house to get all my stuff that i needed. once we were back at ashers house i unpacked a bit by putting new clothes in my drawer and plugging my charger into the outlet on my side of the bed.

an:can we go get chick-fil-a?
as:sure but your driving
an:how nice of you

he smiles at my sarcasm and then walks out of the room. i jog to catch up with him and finally get there when we were in the car. i backed out of the driveway while asher turned on alec benjamin. aka both our favorite artist.

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