P.s i still love you

Ch. 7

Louis POV

The boys just left with Harry& the ambulance. Whatever. He will be fine. It wasn't even that deep of a cut. I dont understand why they were so frantic.

I do have to admit though. I love him. I always have. Its just my family is homophobic. Im not, though. Why else would i love louis?

There's nothing to do so i decide to just sit and watch the Telly. I have a strange feeling in my gut. But i ignore it as i put on house hunters.

My phone goes off and i see Simons name pop up. Guess i have no choice...

"What?" I say annoyed.

"Why aren't you at the hospital? Harry could be dying for all you know!" Simon says in a serious tone.

"He is fine. He was the dumbass to even think about cutting himself. He didnt even go deep, he is fine." I snap.

Simon hangs up without another word. I turn my attention to the tv only to be disrupted by another phone call. This time, by Liam.

"What the hell? Im trying to wat-" i get cut off by.... Sobbing?

"H-he is gone. He's g-gone L-Louis." I hang up.

This is unbelievable. No it cant be true. Oh my.. Harry!

I run out the door not even bothering to grab a jacket even though its snowing. I grab my keys from my jean pocket and get in the car. Then i race to the hospital.

As i walk up i see an annoyed nurse at the front desk.

"Can i help you?" She says.

"Yes actually my fr- my bestfriend is in the emergency room? I need to see him hurry! His name is Harry. Harry styles."

Her scowl turns to a sympathetic look.

"Im so sorry for your loss. He is on floor 9, room 324."

I run. Faster than ever. Ignoring the piercing stares.

I finally reach room 324. I feel my breath hitch as i hear sobs from multiple people. Im guessing its Niall, Liam, and Zayn. I slowly open the door and see my three bestfriends crying all huddled up to eachother.

That alone was enough for me to break down. Then i looked at Harry. Then the heart monitor. This isn't real. This isn't real. Please dont be real. Oh what have i done?

I rush to Harry's side and grab his hand.

"W-what have i done? Im so sorry Harry this is all my fault. Im sorry Harry i love you. I do. I swear i do. Harry listen! LIsten to me Harry! Harry stop! Stop Harry. Come back. This isn't funny. Please Harry. I miss you already. I wanted you to be happy. I couldn't let myself hurt you. Thats what i did! I hurt you. Harry i know you're listening." I sob, the doctor comes in and tells me to leave because i was being to loud.

"Harry! Harry please. Harry come back. Harry just listen. Why wont you fucking listen. Harry this isn't a joke." I reach over and grab his shoulders shaking him. He doesn't budge, "Hazz please..." I say and collapse onto his no longer beating chest.

With that, the doctor drags me out of the room.