P.s i still love you

Ch. 13

Zayns POV- (sorry for shifting the POVS so much)

What the actual fuck is happening? I know that Niall already hurts because of Harry, now louis?

Whatever. Yes, im miserable that these things happen, i just have to keep confidence so that i can stay strong for the boys. Maybe it will rub off on them?

I know, though. I know that I am the only straight one in the band. How? I've seen it, heard it, even read it.

When i say read it, i dont mean like on the news, i mean like in diaries. I've seen it from Harry and Lou. I've heard it from Liam, and I've read it from Niall.

You see, Niall writes everything down in journal/diary type of thing.

No, i havent gone through his stuff to find it. I just saw it and i didnt know what it was so i read it.

I read it all. From how he thinks he is in love with Harry, but i know he wasn't and he isn't. Its obvious. He isn't in love with Harry, maybe as a friend, but nothing more. He is in love with Liam. Why am i always the one to figure these things out? I rarely pay attention.

Anyways, Niall and I Are currently heading for the hospital. I figured now was the time to ask him about his life.

"Niall, what are you?" I ask keeping my eyes on the road, to prevent a crash.

"Human? A boy?" He says trying to joke, but you could he sadness in his voice.

"No. I mean sexuality wise." I state.

"Im straight?" Niall said.

"Niall, you know you can tell me right? I kind of already knew. I also know that you are in love with Liam."

"Liam?" He says chuckling, "no, Harry."

"Oh my god." He says covering his mouth and squeezes his eyes shut.

"Niall. It's not Harry you're in love with. Admit it." I say sternly.

"No. I do not love Liam. I love(d) Harry."

"I didnt ask if you loved Liam, i said you dont love Harry. You're already weakening. I didnt even try yet." I say..

"No, Zayn, I dont love Liam. Liam is just a friend, maybe a bestfriend, thats it."

"Niall, mate, you've got it all mixed up! You love Liam. You loved Harry as a bestfriend. Havent you noticed. You've always been so fond of Louis and Harry's relationship. But you've always been more fond of Liam. Why wont you just admit it? I already know, so why not?"

"I dont know. Maybe because i dont?" He said

"You do."

"I dont."

"You do."

"I dont."

"Yes, you do."

Niall sighs in defeat.

"Fine. I do."

I smile triumphantly, but it falters when i reach the hospital parking lot.

"You know you're going to have to tell Liam at some point, right?" I say looking over at Niall as I get out of the drivers seat.

"Yes, just not until i know if he feels the same about me."

He does, Niall. He does . I say to myself.