Stringent Serenity

Chapter S E V E N

A/N - decided to continue this story. If you don't remember what happened previously please read last chapter. XOXO Enjoy!

Essence Kenzie

I walked into the room and looked at him sprawled out on the hospital bed, his body laid there looking lifeless. He laid with a leg and arm cast on breathing steadily as his chest went up and down. The sounds of his heart monitor made my heart skip a beat knowing his body could just break down any minute by now. A tear slid down my cheek, and I quickly wiped it away. Seeing him on this bed broke my heart, not that he had already has, but the uneasiness of losing this man and my son not have his father around. After the incident I went to my parents and we had a long talk, about all of this. I've decided I am getting a divorce and decided that the only string that will be keeping us together is Trevor. But, when I got a call saying he got into a car accident, I just- I just broke down. Its actually been about three days since he's been in a coma and this is my first time coming to see him. I know it might sound bad, but in all honesty I was still angry. At him, myself, the world and that stupid bitch, Monica.

Its kind of crazy how karma just comes into his life, by chewing him up and deciding on if she should kill him or not. So instead she puts him in a painful situation by making him suffer. People say pain is meant to be felt ... But I don't know what I'm suppose to feel. Am I suppose to be happy? Am I suppose to be sad? Angry? or something. I don't know, but what I do know is that I'll always love this man. But, I refuse to have Trevor's childhood suffer because of our selfish acts upon each other. The opening of the door knocked off my thoughts of concentration upon the situation, A nurse walked in and said, "Sorry ma'am, but visiting hours are over ." I looked over to her and replied. "Thank you." Wiping my nose with my forearm and taking one more glance at Michael I turned away and made my way out of the room. I began walking towards the elevator at a swift pace. Stopping at the elevator I pressed the button to go down and the door opened, and I stepped inside.

Someone yelled for me to keep the door open, but they beat me to it and Damien stood in front of me breathing heavily. "Hey." He spoke with a smile on his face. It suddenly disappeared once he saw my eyes, and I knew they were red and puffy. I felt ashamed that he had to see me like this, but it's to late now. His face now held the expression of pity and confusion. A weary smile was quickly plastered on my face.

"Hey." I respond. He searched my face and frowned.

"Whats wrong?" He asks, stepping closer to me, showing his height. He looked as if he stood at six feet and two inches tall.

I shake my head. "I'm good--don't worry about it. I'm fine, just tired. That's all." I say rambling, hoping he will change the subject. Looking down at me, his once stern and confused face, turned soft as if he just let it go. At that moment I noticed he wore scrubs. Looking him up and down I forced a smile on my lips and poked him in his chest.

"Your a doctor?" I asked, with a smirk on my lips. He stepped back and stood next to me as the doors of the elevator open.

"Yeah." He answers. Looking down at me. "Foreplay isn't the only thing I know how to do." He says winking at me, lifting up the left corner of his mouth, smirking at me seductively. I shake my head at him.

"Role play, get it right." I say with a small smile on my lips. When I look up my smile immediately was wiped away. She slowed down her pace once she saw me, and fear struck into her eyes. Instantly, my blood began to boil, as I flared my notrils in complete anger. What the hell is she doing here?! I thought.

"Look, Essence. I just came to see if he was o--" She tries to plead but I cut her off.

"No, you look bitch. You have no fucking right, to walk your ass in here. His safety is non of your damn business. So, take your trifling ass back home. " I say, staring her down as if I was stabbing her with daggers. Her eyes threatening to pour out tears, but I could care less.

"Essence, please." She choked out. I laughed in her face, call me cold hearted. I don't care. She didn't, when she had her legs open. Did she?

"Um." Damien spoke. I damn near forgot he was even there. I look up at him and began to speak.

"I'm sorry, but I have to go." I say walking away from them, I eyed Monica with hatred. I walked out of the hospital and made my way to my car. I was walking quickly from the hospital out of complete anger, hoping the tears that are trying to escape from my eyes, wouldn't pour out. Who does Monica think she is walking into the hospital. If steam could flow from my head everyone would think I'm crazy.

"Essence wait!" Someone yelled. I turned around and a single tear flowed down my cheek. I quickly wiped it away as Damien approached me. He was breathing heavily, as he looked over my face in concern. "Whats going on?" He questions. I looked away and saw Monica walking away from the hospital a look of regret was in her eyes. She quickly walked to her car and hopped in. She didn't start her car up and I couldn't see what was going on inside .

Looking back to Damien, his eyes pierced into mine waiting for an answer. But I couldn't reply, my voice wouldnt let me. It felt as if a rock was logged into my throat preventing any words to slip. I began to shake my head because I couldn't speak. I was hurting and I couldn't deny the feeling that were begging too pour out. Tears overfilled my eyes, so I quickly shut them to push them back but it was useless. I'm so overwhelmed, to much has happened in this week and it isn't even over. His arms wrapped around me as I was pulled into his chest. I don't know what came over me but I just broke down. My tears stained his scrubs as he rubbed his hands up and down my arm to comfort me.

"Essence what's wrong? Talk to me." He sounded desperate, and truely concerned. Why?... Why is he so worried about what's going on in my life? I hate the fact that I feel so vulnerable. As if my life was on cloud 9. I hate crying in front of people and here I am crying into his arms. I let my guard down so easily, that I almost hadn't noticed it.

I pulled myself out of his arms and quickly back away. I needed time, to much is going on and I need time. I thought. "I'm so sorry, Damien. I'm so sorry." I uttered lowly. His eyes glistened and his lips agape.

"--wait..." He says and I shook my head vigorously, walking away swiftly to my car when I got to it I saw that Damien didn't follow. So I hopped in and slammed my fist against the stirring wheel. Tears streamed down my face as I bit my lip as hard I as I could. I was trying to push all the pain away, but it's useless. It's all my fault. If I wasn't being so harsh towards him and being demanding he wouldn't be in this situation. If I just got him help instead of letting him do it all on his own. If only.....

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Watching Trevor sleep in my arms gave me solitude. If anything could make me happy and calm it was my son. I kinda felt bad about what I did to Damien but I need my space right now. I wasn't trying to get into any thing new. So when I made it to my parents's house I made a decision it was time to go back to my own home. When I got here I decided to skip the cleaning and go upstairs to wash him up and take him a nap. Now here he is sleeping silently in my arms. I stared down at him as he shifted and snuggled into my chest, taking a deep breathe and exhaling.

I couldn't deny a great father Michael is to Trevor. He always did what he could to make sure he was happy. But I just wanted the satisfaction to see him suffer without him. Sounds cruel, I know. I've learned a couple things this week. You can't trust everyone. And it's okay to take time to relax and understand that things happen for a reason. I wasn't meant to be married to Michael, and I wasn't meant to be friends with Monica. I understand this now. I need to stop being selfish and just do good for my son and just let God work his magic on my life.

"Everything will aways fall into place." Words from the wise.

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A/N

Decided to update you guys with a chapter. Hope you enjoyed. Voice your opinion and like.

Do you guys see she's showing moral growth in the way she sees life?

Damien in media.

XOXO
Destiny