Can I Be Your Favorite?

Chapter 11

Alec's POV

"Ugh..." I looked down at my now pained knuckles. "Dammit..."

Liam's POV

Alec's been locked in his room all day... Why didn't he wanna come down when he was asked? Jax seemed to read my mind since he spoke up through the dinner silence. " Wheres Alec?" I watched as he looked at the empty seat where he usually was. "He wouldn't come outta his room."
"Why not?" I knew there was something about my brother that they weren't telling me, but I could never figure it out. "He... He said he didn't want to. " "Someone Should check on him!" "I-" The mother figure was stopped midsentence as Jax got up from his seat to head upstairs. "I'll go." I watched as he left but went back to my dinner when I heard him knock on the door. 

Alec's POV

I was trying to sleep when I heard the knock on my door. Angry at whoever was bothering me, I grabbed something and threw it at the door. I didn't realize that it was the family picture they had given me for Christmas until I heard the frame break against the door. As soon as I heard his voice, I knew why he was here... " Alec are you ok?? It's Jax. "
"Leave me the fuck alone!" "Alec.... Can I come in?" I need to hide. He can't see me... He can't know that I've been hurting. I didn't give him a response as I tried to find somewhere to hide. "Alec???" I was already in a panic when I hid under the bed. "I'm coming in!" I heard him walk in but pause . "???"
I understood why he stopped when I heard the glass from the broken frame cracks more under his shoe. After that his voice sounded more sad.  "Alec...? Are you in here?"  I love him but I have to stay as quiet as possible so that he might not find me. I watched his feet walk around my room and then stop at my bed. "Alec?"
I held my breath when he stopped so that I could stay silent... He's just so close...  "Alec... If you're in here, please come down for dinner... Your family misses you..."
I'm sure if I'm quiet enough... He won't hear me... "I don't have a family." I watched as he crouches to look under the bed. "Alec...?"
I curled my shaking body up into a ball and tried to hide, hoping he would leave. But I knew that wasn't gonna be the case. When I looked back at him, I saw that heartbroken expression as he looked at me. "Alec, can you come out...?" His voice was gentle, but sad. Like he was trying to talk to a frightened toddler. Maybe that's all he sees me as, just a small frightened child, no different than my brother. "... I'm bi..." I heard my voice shake and crack as I spoke, trying to force it back to normal. He gave me a slight laugh before going back to his serious expression. "Not what I meant..."
"Leave me be ..." "No... I'm not leaving..." "Please..." "I love you... I'm not leaving..." I curled up more just trying to block out the tone of his voice. I couldn't stand being seen like that. Much less being talked to as such. "Alec, please get out from under there..." I watched his hand pick up from off of my floor and reach for me.
I gave him a low growl and jerked back away from him, I pushed myself back until I could feel the wall behind me but I regretted my actions when I saw him flinch and pull his hand back. "Please go away Jax." "Why?" "Just leave." "Why?" I didn't answer, I just rolled over to face away from him. "Alec please-"
"Leave." "Please don't do anything you'll regret..." I felt my eyes fill with tears cause I don't wanna have to push him away but I don't have a choice. I took a sharp inhale before speaking. "Leave." "Alec-" "Leave." "No. "
I grit my teeth trying to hide my tears fall which made my voice sound pissed off. "Leave." "... Fine."
I couldn't help but let out a quiet sigh. Dammit. Good fucking job Alec. What else are you gonna fuck up today? Despite my thoughts, I didn't dare say a word. "But if you fell like coming downstairs to see the people who love you, we would be glad to have you. I'll save you a plate." I rolled back over and saw him get up and watched his feet walk to my door.
I gripped at my own hair cause I knew I messed Everything up... I have to get this stress out... I kicked the wall HARD, letting out a quiet hiss at the pain before kicking again but harder. I thought Jax had left so I crawled outta my hiding place. I was starting to get pissed at myself so I need this pain to get it out. I didn't hesitate before I turned and threw my fist into the wall. What I didn't know, was that he hadn't left and he was still standing in the doorway... He had saw it....