Can I Be Your Favorite?

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Alec's POV

I don't know how long it had been... All I knew was that I couldn't get up, off the floor. I couldn't even breath between my pathetic sobbing and it only worsened when I heard a knock on my door. "Alec? " I still couldn't move or breathe enough to answer... Well. Unless you count the coughs or my gasps for air. "Alec??" I knew my door opened and someone came in and crouched beside me. "Alec..." The person pulled me in a hug, probably in a sorry attempt to soothe me... But it's working. "Shh..." I would've hugged them back and thanked them over and over for thinking and caring enough to come back for me, but I was still paralyzed and breathless. The only thing I could get out were pitiful whimpers as they rubbed my back and whispered sweet nothings to me... Something Jax would've never done. He probably wouldn't even have come back. After I had managed to regain my breath I managed to learn how to talk again. Oh goody. "He left me..." Great. I could only 3 words. That's fan - fucking - tastic. "... Who left...?" "My boyfriend..." I didn't hear their response so I just continued my venting. "He left me all alone and he hates me... I'm so scared... I can't do this anymore... Not without him..." "I'm sure he doesn't hate you... He loves you with all his heart..." I was met with cold silence before they started talking again. "Im sure he doesn't hate you... He loves you with all his heart..." "B-But the way he looked at me... Right before he left me... He doesn't want me anymore and I don't blame him..." "Alec of course he wants you... He loves you so so much... He would be crushed to ever lose you..." "No he doesn't... I knew this would happen... He shouldn't have pretended to love me in the first place... " "He never pretended... His feelings for you aren't fake..." "He shouldn't pretend... I shouldn't have gone along with it cause I knew how it would end... But I was caught up in how lovestruck I was... If I can't have him... Then I give up on love forever..." "... Alec, look at me please..." I moved a little to glance up behind my bangs and I only started whimpering and crying again at the fact that I had admitted to the boy who hurt me that I was hurting. But instead of doing anything harsh, he cupped my face in his hands and wiped my cheeks with his thumbs. " Alec, you're my world...I'm so so so sorry, I never meant to make you cry... I just wish you knew how much I love you... Then you'd know I'd never leave you..." I got so happy at his words that I couldn't stop myself from crying and it seemed to alarm him a bit. "I'm sorry... Please don't cry..." "I... I just love you so much..." The tears racing down my face blurred my vision and made me choke on my words a bit and I probably look like a stupid toddler... But nonetheless I saw the most adorable smile spread across his face as he kissed away my tears. "I love you too..." "I missed you... So much..." "I missed you too..." By the way he was holding onto me, I could tell he didn't wanna let go. "J thought you promised you wouldn't leave again..." "I know... I'm so so sorry... I never meant to walk out like that... I thought you just wanted me gone..." "S-Sometimes I tell people to go away when I want them to stay and hug me... It lets me know if they love me enough to stay... And it hurts when you leave me cause it's like you hate me..." "Then I'll stay... I'm never leaving your side..." I felt him hug me again and so I held onto him like if I let go he'd leave me again. "Please promise to never do that again..." "I promise.." "For real this time..." "I promise... I will never leave you..." "We both know you will... But it'll be ok as long as you come back..." "I'll always come back to you..." "And I'll come back too..." "I love you.. so much..." "I love you too... So so much... You're a nerd but I love you... You're my nerd ..."  He let out a small laugh before continuing. "I like the sound of that..." "Me too..." He kissed my cheek and I pressed our foreheads together so that we could be closer. "And if I see you with someone else... I'll chop his dick off..." That adorable laugh rang through my room and I savored the sound while it lasted cause he rarely let's that laugh escape. "You won't have to worry and that... Youre the only one I want..."