angie's pov"can i hug you?" she says to me in isle three in tesco, "why" i question "because i feel like it angie" she answers "fine" i say.
so now me and billie, hugging in isle three in tesco, super tight. i missed this i can't lie but i shouldn't.
i try pulling away but billie holds on tighter "a few more minutes" she says, i sigh and hug her back.
i needed her back to make me feel needed, i've been so sad without her lately and i hate it.
i'm feeling lost and i don't know what to do now, i feel bad, go to bed wake up even worse.
"how are you?" i ask her, she looks at me "i'm okay you?" she asks "yeah i'm good just came to get some food ya know" i say meaning the things on the shelves around us.
"okay well i'm gonna head out yeah?" she said "okay" i answer as i watch her go pay for her things and leaving.
fuck i'm still so hung up on her i think as i walk towards the register.
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i'm sad, very sad lol.
i just want everyone to go away.
i'm being serious by the way.
please everyone go away.
my mental healths decreasing if you couldn't tell.
guess i'll leave soon. :/-angie xoxo
drapetomania
(n.) an overwhelming urge to run away.
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how she lost herself. billie eilish.
Fanfictionshe slowly was losing herself without realising. she also lost a few people along the way but that's okay. lowercase intended.