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reid

My thoughts at the moment are scattered. I have no clue what just happened. Everything was fine. If it wasn't about the kiss then what happened? 

Elle has never acted this way before. I saw the absolute terror and sadness in her eyes. Was she scared of me? I don't think I've ever given her a reason to be. I replay the events of tonight. Had I said something wrong? Did I smell? I have no clue what I've done wrong and it's driving me crazy. 

Once I realize, I've been standing and staring off into space, I get in my car and head home.

Liv greets me at the door.

"Hey Reid," Liv greets.

"Hey Liv," I replied tiredly.

"What's wrong?" She asks.

"Nothing, don't worry about it," I state and start my way up to my room.

Liv runs up the stairs and stops me.

"Hey, you don't get to do that. What happened?" She asks again.

"It's nothing," I shake her off.

"It's obviously something if it's making you act like this," She retorts.

I roll my eyes.

She looks at me expectedly.

"Elle and I kissed," I state.

Her eyes light up, "Well that's great! Why would you be upset about that," she exclaims.

"She left. After we kissed, she freaked out and left," I explain, not wanting to relive the moment.

"Why?", Liv asks.

"I have no clue," I sigh.

"Well did you do something wrong?" She asks.

"I don't think so, and I'm not being stupid. I've run through every moment of that day and the week before. I never did anything that seemed to make her upset. So, I have no clue what I did," I explain.

"I'm sorry Reid, I have no clue why she would act that way," She replies.

"It's fine. Goodnight Liv," I state and make my way to my room.

"Goodnight Reid," She replies.

I lay down. My thoughts drift to Elle. Her beautiful eyes and soft brown hair. The way her lips felt against mine. Ughhh. Why did this have to happen? Why did I have to kiss her? everything was fine until I kissed her. She said it wasn't about that, but maybe she just said it to ease the rejection. I don't even know. I don't want to think about it anymore. 

I try closing my eyes, but I can't fall asleep. Damn it. 

I can't stop thinking about her. Elle. The girl I think of every day, morning and night. It's hard to believe I've only known her for a couple months. I've never felt like this before. The way my mood lightens whenever I see her. That smile could make me do just about anything. God, I sound so girly, but it's true. 

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