That promise.
It was full of emotion.
He means it.
There, in the pouring rain on my porch, i look up, tears running down both of our faces, him holding me, i connect our lips for the third time.
This time we were used to it. Luke lifted me off the ground and twirled me around as we kissed, smiling.
This turned into me being pissed at him to us kissing...
That escalated quickly.
Whatever.
"So cliche," HE mumers against my lips. "Kissing in the rain,"
I giggle.
Luke puts me down.
And with another 2 words,
"I promise"
He leaves.
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Ive been thinking about the kisses all day.
Also staring at my ring all day.
It sits on my right forefinger.
Luke has been gone for 3 hours. I havent got up from my couch.
Just then, my phone beeped.
Luke.
I promise.
Okay. I believe you.
I know. I miss you Alli.
Stop being so cliche. We arent even dating.
I know...
Im sorry.
Dont be, i understand you arent ready. Ill be here when you are. I promise, Alli.
So many promises.
I know. But if thats what it takes for you to trust me and to date me, ill promise you anything.
I dont answer.
He didn't mean that.
Did he?
I sigh and put my head in my hands.
Luke is so sweet. So warm. So amazing. But can I trust him with my past?
He might think I'm crazy and leave.
His kisses are so wonderful. And his hugs make me feel safe.
But, my past...
This is giving me a headache.
I rub my temples and groan.
"I promise"
God. I feel so vulnerable.
All I can think about is Luke.
How his looting feels against my lips, how his hair is so perfect, how his eyes show every emotion, how his arms are so strong, how his hands are calloused, how he said he loved me...
He said he loved me....
And I told him I love him too.
Do I?
I think I do...
Yes, I love Luke Hemmings.
And he knows it.
But I'm not risking loosing him forever.
"My happy little pill... take me away...." my phone rings, blaring Happy Little Pill my Troye Sivan.
Luke's ringtone.
I remember when I set that. he is my happy little pill.
"H-Hello?" I clear my throat.
"Alli? Is everything okay?" Luke's voice floats through the phone.
I sigh.
"Of course I am. Why?" I ask.
"Because you didn't answer... anyway... it's still raining and you're home alone... I'm worried. What's on you're mind? Alli, I need to know. What can't you trust me with? I promise it won't change that I love you. Please, I want to help. What if there is an emergency? And I don't know what's going on? You could die, Alli. Please tell me." He sounds hurt, broken.
"Luke," I rub my head "I can't loose you."
"You won't. I'm right here." He assures
me.
Fuck it.
"Well....."
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