Today is the day. The day they comehome.
The slices on my arms arehealing, but slowly. They arescabs. And they itch sometimes. But they are still very very noticableso when i get up this morning, i slip a sweatshirt over my head.
I dont even bother fixing my hair orgetting out of mypajamas or doing my makeup or anything.
I just put the sweat shirt on and skip down the stairs to the living room and go through the movies in the cabinet.
What should i watch? Sweeny Todd??
Yeah i love that movie.
I pick the DVD out and put it in.
The killings just started when Calum texts me. Not even in the group chat
HEY BOO WE ARE ON THE WAY TO YOUR HOUSE BE READY FOR HUGSSSS
i chuckle slightly and lock my phone,singing along to My Friends.
The door bursts open 5 minutes later.
"AHHHHHHHHHHH OMG ALLI I MISSED YOU SO MUCH!" I am tacked by two heavy boys.
"Boys,dont crush her," I hear Ashton say from somewhere to my right.
I push against the boys and they slide off, Calum landing on the floor and Michael landing on top of him.
I rub my armsandsmile. "I missed you guys too." I say weakly."But if you could please move your fat arses, im trying to watch Sweeny Todd."
Michael pouts but collapses on the couch next to me.
"Is,uh, is he with you?" I ask, looking at my lap.
"Yeah," Michael rubs my back."He is over there," He nods his head in the direction of the living room door.
Sure enough, Luke stands there, hands stuffed in his pockets, lookingdown,his hair not styled and his clothes crinkled.
Tears form in my eyes at the mere sight of him and i look away. I stand up and Ashton sits in my place, Calum sitting next to him.
"Alli," He says quiety. "C'mere"
I look at the three boys on the couch. "There isnt any room," I sniff, trying to keep the tears from spilling over.
Ashton pats his legs.
I dont even hesitate. I slide onto Ashton's lap and curl in a ball, my feet still resting on Michaels lap. I bury my head in Ashton's chest and he wraps his arms around my fragile body.
Michaels arms wraparound my ankles and his chin rest on my legs. Calum wraps one armaround my waist.
I feel..... safe, protected..... loved.
Even though i dont want them too, sobs escape my lips and tears spill down mycheeks and I hide my face in Ashton'schest.
I really needed this for the past 20days.
All the arms tighten around me and i hear a strangled sob that doesnt come from me.
It comes from Luke.
More and more of his sobs fill my ears. It makes me sob harder.
Ifinally manage to say "Let goof me,"
The 3 boys let go and i stand shakily. I look at Luke.
He is still standing in the same place but he is visably shaking. Sobs raking through his tall muscular frame.
I make my way slowly to him.
"L-Luke...?"
His bloodshot eyes find mine, his sobs get worse; as do mine.
All of the sudden, i fling myself at him and his arms find theirway around my smallbody. Heclutches me so hard i know my sides will have bruises. He pulls me against his shaking body and I bury my head in his chest, clutching his shirt in my fists.
"I-Iam s-so sorry." He says
"I know."
We sink to the ground and stay there for a long time.
" But i cant trust you again."
