All By Myself - Hizzie

only the begining

Today was the first day of my senior year, and I couldn't be any more excited. I had a game plan on how to make Lizzie Fall in love with me, and at the end of the checklist, is going to prom together. I usually keep to myself at school, but I don't care if anyone watches Lizzie, and I go on the dance floor as queen and queen, or at least I can dream right.

"Hope." Josie screamed, and I looked up from my journal and said, "sorry, I didn't hear you what's up."

I obviously had a massive blush on my face, and Josie noticed and said: "what are you writing."

I closed the book and said, "none of your business." She grabbed my journal and started running around my room, and I chased her for like 5 mins yelling to give it back when Lizzie walked in and grabbed the book from Josie and said: "here you go, Hope and Josie don't you have to pick up a certain devil."

I couldn't help but laugh while Josie ran out of the room and said, "thanks, Lizzie," while giving her a soft smile.

We looked at each other for a couple seconds, and she said: "I almost forgot mom's want to see us before we leave."

"Okay I should be down in a few mins I just want to do my hair."

She left my room, and I took my journal and put it in my secret hiding place and started making my way downstairs. I walked into the kitchen and saw moms talking very secretive, and I was inquisitive but couldn't hear them. I sit down next to the table and start eating some pancakes when I hear the girls walk down the stairs to the kitchen and sit next to me and waited for moms to tell us before we left for our first day.

Caroline said, "so Hope your birthday is coming pretty soon, and mama and I wanted to give you your present early."

I said curiously, "okay."

Katherine said "put this on" and handed me a blindfold

I was hesitant, but I put it on, and they walked me outside of the house and took off the blindfold, and I didn't notice anything right away then I saw a car parked in front of the house with a red bow and screamed: "you got me a car."

"yes, but you have to drive the twins to school every day, but the car is yours."

"anything you want, I got a car." I jumped up and down when mama handed me the car key, and I said: "I will be right back."

And mom said, "okay?"

I ran back inside the house and went upstairs, and before I drove the car, I needed to get one thing I looked all over the room but couldn't find it. I opened my closet and there it was I grabbed it and ran back downstairs while also grabbing my bag for school. I walked outside, and the twins were already sitting in the car Lizzie in the front and Josie in the back just the way I wanted. I kiss mom and mama, and they ask me what I was looking for, I picked up the item, and they both nodded their heads and gave me a hug before I left.

I walked to the car and looked back at them and say "thank you," and open the door to the car and sit down. Josie said, "what did you need to get."

Past

Grandma Liz is very sick, and the doctor says she only has a few hours left, and she wanted to see me, but I have been avoiding this moment all day, so I let everyone say their goodbyes first. I saw Lizzie walk out of the room crying, and she was the last one before I had to go in. I walk up to the room, and everyone looked at me, mom, mama, Josie, and Lizzie, and I knew it was my turn to say goodbye. I starred at the door for a min before making my way into the room. And immediately, I felt my heart sink into my chest and started to tear up. She looked up at me and smiled, and for someone so sick, she looked so healthy. She motioned me to come closer, and I walked over to her bed and sat next to her.

"don't cry. Hope because if you cry, I am going to cry, and I won't be able to tell you what I want to say."

I held in my tears and looked at her while I waited for her to say something. She opened up the drawer, and there was a necklace and a ring, and a few tears fell from my eyes. I said, "you can't give that to me. I am not your real family. Give it to Josie or Lizzie."

"Hope you are my granddaughter, and nothing will change that I love you so much, and I want you to have them. When you are ready, I want you to purpose to Lizzie with this ring, and the necklace is for you."

I started to cry, and I went from sitting to lying next to her, and she handed me the items and closed my fist. We just laid there for a while when I heard the machine beep really loud, and I looked at her and knew there was nothing the doctors could do. The whole family walked in, and the doctor silenced the machine since she had a DNR. They let her die in peace. I didn't want to let go of her, but eventually, I did and ran into the arms of the ones I love.

Present

I Picked up the necklace and placed it over the mirror and said: "now grandma will always be with us." Lizzie put her hand on my knee to make sure I was okay because, after her loss, I was in a very dark place. She was the one that saved me, and it affected me really hard.

I gave Lizzie a smile and started making my way to school.

***

The first day was near and complete and I decided to fuck the whole plan and just tell Lizzie how I feel because she obviously cares about me too or she would have made sure I was okay in the car today or even the first day I met her so after the pep rally tonight I am going to tell her. I was the first one to get to the gym and just sat down on the bleachers as I waited for everyone to show up, and they did slowly but not the person I cared about. There she was with her perfect blonde hair and smile I waved to her as she came up and sat next to me, but then some jock guy came and sat on the other side of Lizzie, and of course, he started to flirt with her, and she started laughing, and I was so jealous. So I shushed him and said the principal was talking.

After the pep rally ended, I looked everywhere for Lizzie but couldn't find her. I had one more place to check and finally confessed these feelings to her. I walk to the art room, and the door was already open, so I took a peek inside and I couldn't see anyone and just then I heard a noise and from the corner of my eye I saw her but I didn't call out to her because I wanted to see what was happening and she was kissing that guy from the rally, and I felt my heart break into a 100 piece's and ran out of the school at got into my car and drove straight home. I walked inside, and my mom saw I was upset and clearly crying but didn't push it out of me. I just went upstairs, and when I opened my door, I see Josie lying on my bed and yell, "get out, I want to be alone right now."

She got off my bed, and she had a book in her hand, and it looked familiar when she said: "so you love Lizzie, huh." Then I realized it was my journal I grabbed it from her hand and closed the door so no one can hear us and she said: "Woah Mikaelson don't worry I am not going to tell her I want to help you."

"Lizzie doesn't like me, and never will I just saw her Kissing some random dude."

"don't worry about that Lizzie is a lesbian."

"she looked pretty straight to me when she was swallowing his tongue."

"Just shut up and listen do you want my help or not."

"fine, I want your help."

"only 1 small tiny thing."

"see this is why I don't come to you."

"it's nothing big I just want to borrow your car this weekend to take Penelope to the movies."

"okay deal now what do I do about Lizzie."

"First, throw out your gameplan and never think about it too because Lizzie obviously has feelings for you, but she doesn't know it yet, and you need to make her know it."

"how do I do that?"

"Tomorrow, we will go out shopping, and I will tell you, for now, goodnight."

Whatever Josie is planning, I don't like it, but it's the only thing right now that is keeping me from breaking down and locking myself in my room till college, but for now, I am going to get some rest for tomorrow.