All By Myself - Hizzie

What is Josie up too

Lizzie Pov

After the pep rally, I went to the art room so that I could paint a little bit it keeps me calm when I got there I heard someone from behind me, and it was that guy from the pep rally, and I obviously don't like him I just tried making Hope jealous, and I think it worked. But now I have to deal with this idiot. I saw him walking up to me, and I said: "Hi Charlie, what's up."

He licked his lips, and I wanted to throw up he said: "me and you Halloween dance I will be the killer and you the victim."

That was the worst pickup line I ever heard. I almost started laughing but didn't I said: "I can't, it's my best friends' birthday, and I am going to hang out with her."

He stepped closer to me, and I was feeling very uncomfortable, and he just kissed me. It lasted half a second, and I kicked him in the groin and said: "I don't like you. I am obviously gay."

I heard footsteps, and I ran to see who it was, and I looked in the hallway, and it was Hope running as fast as she could. She saw me kiss this idiot and must think I like him. He got up and walked past me, and I didn't say anything I felt heartbroken, the one person that I am in love with thinks I like a guy and not her. I went to the back of the classroom and picked up an empty canvas and just started painting. I wasn't trying to paint anyone in specific, but when I was done, it was apparent who I drew.

I just left the painting there and made my way home I had to walk all the way back, but I feel like I deserve it, so I just put on my sad playlist and walked home. On the long walk, I started crying multiple times. I felt so guilty because I know Hope likes me, but I am the one that's afraid to come out even though I told that loser earlier he won't tell anyone unless he wants to be embarrassed.

I see my house, and I am afraid to walk in and face Hope after what happened in the art room, but I had no choice. I unlocked the front door and went straight upstairs and into my room and didn't say anything to anyone. I got changed into my pj's and was about to go to sleep when Josie walked in and closed the door. I sat up and said, "what's up jo."

"what were you think Lizzie." She screamed whispered

"I don't know what you're talking about."

"so you didn't kiss some random guy in the art room."

I looked at my sister and realized Hope must have told her, and I had a few tears in my eyes and my sister came and sat next to me, and I said: "I didn't kiss him he kissed me and I kicked him in the groin, but Hope didn't see that part."

"wait, how did you know? Hope saw you."

"I saw her running away."

"oh."

I sobbed, "Josie, I don't know what to do. I feel so guilty. I know it's not my fault, but I feel like I hurt Hope and I don't know what to do."

"why don't you just tell her how you feel."

"wait, how did you know."

Josie laughed and said, "no one in this house is straights, especially you."

I gave my sister a hug and said: "what can I do to fix this."

"I will tell you tomorrow. For now, get some rest. You need it."

Josie left the room, and I was happy that I sort of came out to her or more as she knew already, but still, it's a win in my book. I turned the lights off and headed off to bed.

***

I heard my phone go off and looked and it was Josie calling. I answered, and she was talking too fast, but the gist of the conversation was to meet her at the mall at 1pm next to the movie theater. I looked at my clock, and it was only 10, and Josie must have already left. I sit upon my bed and let out a sigh knowing today is going to be a long day.

Hope Pov

Josie hangs up the phone, and I say, "who was that."

"Penelope telling me she loves me."

That's cute that her girlfriend calls to remind her that she is loved. "so what are we doing at the mall, Josie."

"We are going to give you a makeover."

"Nope, I am leaving."

"you want Lizzie to fall in love with you, then listen to me."

I gave up and did what she wanted and went into the first store and I swear Josie is like a machine hse picked 3 outfits on and made me go try them on and I went with the second outfit, but Josie told me to wear it, and I don't know why I said ok, but I liked it either way. Then there was the makeup store, and I refused to go in. I hate makeup and don't want to wear it. We went shopping for a couple of hours, and it was already past noon. Josie said, "Hey, Hope, do you want to go watch a movie."

"yea, that be nice, which one."

"um, Love Simon is playing."

I have been dying to watch that movie and said, "yes."

"ok, can you go buy the tickets, and I will meet you in front and but the ones for 1:15 I said "ok" and made my way to the theater.

Lizzie Pov

I got to the mall and walked around for a bit because it was a little early and when it was time I walked to the movie theater and just waited there was a lot of people going in, and when the crowd dialed down I saw Hope with tickets in her hand and Josie must have done this. I walk up to her and say, "Hi, Hope."

She looked surprised to see me, but then she realized something, and I could tell nad she said: "my date canceled want to watch a movie with me."

"of course, which one is it."

"Love, Simon."

I nodded my head as Hope gave the attendee the tickets, and we walked in. I got the snacks while Hope held the seats. We were all the way up top. I walked up to where Hope was and put down the soda and candies to eat during the movie.

I sat down next to her as the movie started, we didn't say anything while it was playing until I tried to get some popcorn and so did, she and our hands touched we looked at each other and then moved our hands away. Sometime during the movie, I put my arm around Hope as she leaned in on my shoulder. I was watching the coming-out scene, and I started crying and just got up and left the theater. Hope followed me outside of it and said: "what's wrong, Lizzie."

I just said, "I'm gay, Hope." And more tears started to fall

She gave me a hug and said: "you know that I still love you and nothings going to change. I am so happy you told me I wanted to tell you something as well."

Right before Josie interrupted our conversation and said: "how was the movie with a smirk."

"It was fine."

Josie said, "Hey, Hope, can you drive us home?"

"yea sure."

I don't know what Josie was doing, but I came out to the love of my life it's only a matter of time