Your Secret's Out (Peterick)

All I Wanted

-Patrick's P.O.V.-

When I woke up, I could immediately tell I was at the hospital. The annoying beeping of the monitor and depressing grey walls were dead giveaways.

Dammit, I'm so stupid I can't even kill myself.

"Hey, I think Patrick's awake," I heard a familiar voice say. I looked to my right and saw Andy and Joe standing near my bedside.

"Hi guys," I managed to cough up in a hoarse voice. My throat all of a sudden hurt, like someone sucked all the moisture out of it. Joe noticed and handed me a cup of water. I smacked it out of his hand and watched it spill all over the floor.

"Well then," he remarked as Andy started cleaning the spill. "What even happened, man? Andy and I found you in the bathroom with an empty bottle of pills. You also hit your head pretty hard on the tub." For the first time since I woke up, I noticed my head did hurt. The weird thing is, I don't remember hitting my head. I must've done it when I passed out.

Suddenly, the memories hit me like a wave, just like last time I passed out. Pete breaking up with me. Crying on the floor. Taking the pills. Everything.

"I...I," my mouth tried to make words but it was hard when all the reasons I tried to kill myself filled my mind. "Pete." That was all I could manage to say. Tears streamed down my face again. "Broke up. With. Me." Andy's face fell and Joe looked in the other direction.

"We're so sorry, Patrick." Andy gently put his hand on my shoulder. I brushed his hand away and crossed my arms, pouting. "You should probably know..."

"What?" I spat. I wasn't in the mood for any surprises.

"Before you woke up, Joe called Pete. He said he's on his way to see you." I stared at Andy blankly as Joe walked up beside him. My anger came back again and I sat up abruptly. I yanked the I.V. out of my arm and threw it to the side. Before I had time to get out of the bed, Andy forcefully grabbed my shoulders and pushed me back down. I stared at him in shock and horror as Joe called for a nurse. The nurse ran in and Andy let go of my shoulders.

"Mr. Stump, you need to keep your I.V. in," she said surprisingly calmly. "Don't try to pull a stunt like this again." The nurse walked out just as Pete walked in. I glared at him and looked over at the window.

"We'll leave you two alone." Joe took Andy by the arm and pulled him out of the room.

Pete strolled over to the bed and almost sat on my foot. I pulled my legs to my chest and continued to stare out the window at the depressing scenery.

"Hello Pattycakes," he greeted as if nothing happened.

"How many times have I told you not to call me Pattycakes?" I gritted through my teeth.

"Apparently not enough because I'll always call you that." I glanced over at Pete and he had the most adorable, goofiest grin on his face. I might be really mad at him, but I can't deny the fact that he's super cute. He sighed and a more serious look appeared on his face. "Why did you do it Patrick? Why'd you try to overdose?" I turned my head and saw tears sliding down his face. I immediately felt guilty. "I don't know what I would do without you. I still love you Pattycakes." Pete looked up at me, wiping his eyes. "I shouldn't have broken up with you."

"I still love you too Pete. All I ever wanted was to be with you." His face lit up, but sunk back down when I continued talking. "But you really hurt me. I mean, look at where we are, having this conversation." I pointed at the hospital wall. "I don't know if I'm ready to start dating you again," I mumbled, not even looking up at him. This was technically a lie, but not all of it. I really did want him back but after what happened last time, we could very likely end up in this situation again.

Now it was Pete's turn to be angry. He stood up and bolted out of the room without saying a word. I looked over at the spot on the bed where he had been sitting and noticed a pool of tears on the sheet.

"What's going on?" Andy questioned as he walked back into the room with Joe. "We just saw Pete run out."

"I wish I knew."