Sensei just be with me! (Kakasaku) (being edited)

Chapter 13- You've got to trust me"

What now? I thought. I sat on the edge of the hospital bed. My mom had come by to drop off clothes for me but hadn't stayed long. This devastating news left a metallic sickly taste in my mouth. Kaka-sensei betrayed us? I can't believe it. It doesn't seem true. I think back to my conversation with Tsunade-sama from the other day.

Her words rang though my ears as if she had just said them. I had sat here all night last night just contemplating the truth behind it. 'Land of snow' really?! I clenched my fists. I groaned angrily. There was a rap at the door and I looked up. His sullen eyes looking at me, his usually spiky hair now seemed to droop. His entire being seemed sad.

"Is it true?" He asked he came and sat beside me.
"I don't know" I said honestly. "No" I pause "of corse it's not!" I laugh a little.
Naruto looks up at me and sighs. I look at him quizzically. He sits beside me and places a hand on mine.
"It's not true! How can you doubt him!"
He hummed in response. He looks at me and kisses my on the forehead.

"Let's go home Sakura" he says softly.
He says he'll wait outside the door so I can get changed. I stand up from the bed and begin to change, stripping down into my underwear. I glance out the window, my spy is getting a free show. I laugh bitterly to myself. I lean over my bag and remove my clothing. A black jonin top and shorts. Slipping them on I adjust my selves and throw my hair up into a ponytail. I wrap my head band around my wrist and tie it. I zip up my bag and stand there for a minuet. Leaning over the bag I let a solitary tear slip down my cheek hitting the canvas material of the bag.

"How could he?" I sniffle and wipe the free falling tears away. I cough and splutter pain ripped through my heart splitting it in two.
I try to compose myself in effort to do so I clear my throat and sling the bag over my shoulder. I glance over the room once making sure to leave nothing behind. Nothing. I walk out into the hallway where Naruto stood fiddling with a lock of his golden hair.

"Ready?" He asks I nod quietly and keep on walking. We leave the hospital quickly, passing all the familiar faces of my coworkers.
Naruto is chattering on and I can't seem to concentrate on anything other than what Tsunade had said.

"Sakura? Did you hear me?" Naruto asks weaving a hand in front of my face. Snapping out of my cynical thinking I look up.

"No sorry Naruto, what did you say?"

"I'm going to be a father!" He exclaims joyfully. I congratulate him and smile happily for him. He is excited, after the big deal Hinata's father made about them being together in the beginning it's fantastic that it's working out for them. I of course knew this information as I had been Hinata's doctor but the refreshing normality brings me back.

Naruto is having a kid before sensei, or his friends. It's strange, I feel as if Naruto's kid won't be in the same class in the ninja academy as mine, if I have one. What if I don't have a kid?! My heart feels empty. I want my kids to be friends with Naruto's like how Ino and Shika and choji ended up.

I won't have that chance. I'd literally want to get pregnant tonight. I laugh at the thought. Naruto spoke in gleeful jittering sentences. His eyes bright with enthusiasm.
I smile and congratulate him once more and promise to be around soon with gifts. We had reached the corner of my street and I stop.

"Goodday Naruto, congrats again!" I say waving over my shoulder.
He says good bye and darts up the road to do something very romantic for Hinata, I'm sure.

I'm almost sick with jealousy. I amble over to my front door and fish my keys out from the bag. I step in closing the door behind me. I take my shoes off and leave them by the door. The house is empty, no loud arguing to contradict that.

"I'm home" I call out, just out of habit. I stand in the hall way. Family photos hanging in the walls and objects of decoration sitting on the stair side table. I adjust a crooked photo and then simply go up stairs. I need to get my own apartment, I'm too old to be living at home.

I reach my room and slide my bag to the floor. My room had been left untouched by the world for a week or so. I wander to my mirror. I just looked at my self, my hair looks paler and the sparkle the my eyes were home to is gone. I look weaker and skinnier. I lift my top a little, my midriff looking slimmer. And marred by a horrid scar.

Tsunade said they had tried to get nutrition into me while I was out cold. They had kept me out for three days to watch my healing but my body wouldn't take anything and when it did it would come back up a few hours later. I shake my head, I'll be alright in a few days. I see my jonin jacket on the desk and turn to get it. I slip my arms through the wholes and sigh to my self.

I need to take a walk. With my keys and money in hand I head down the stairs and out the door. I shove my hands into my pockets and walk on.

While fingering the material in the jacket pocket I come across something hard and edged. I slide it out and look at it. A folded page. I tuck it in close unsure if my spy is watching. Un-creasing the page It reveals a few words etched into the page in scrawled handwriting.

"What ever they say I did, I didn't do it, You've got to trust me."
~kakashi

Stunned I look up and begin to weave through the crowds I zigzag through the streets, heading to Kakashi's apparent with more questions than I had before.