I wish I could get away from you.
I wish you would leave me alone, let me be.
Let me be happy.
I can't do that, not with you waiting there, watching me. I can't be happy knowing that you're still there, that maybe I could reach you one day. I can't be happy because I spend most of that energy wishing I could have you.
I spend the rest of that energy wishing you'd be gone forever.
And that is why I'm tired all the time, every day.
I wish I could be a better me, so that I could be loved. Not just by others, but by myself too. I'm damn tired of this self-hatred, it just sucks.
I wish I was okay. With and without you. I can't live with you and I can't live without you, so what the hell am I supposed to do?
Fuck, I've never known what to do. I just kind of go with it and hope I don't die. but I have the feeling I can't do that anymore. When I have to concentrate this hard on being happy, I can't just fall out again. It's not that easy.
I wish I was happy.
I wish I could stop wishing.
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The Things I Never Told You
NonfiksiA collection of pieces taken from my reflection of my life. These are the things I wouldn't dare to say to the people I know. These are the things I'm too scared to tell anyone about. These are the things I'm hiding from everyone. These are my secre...