With you

Chapter 10

Damien's POV
      I practically ran out of Amelia's apartment.i was a little nervous and uptight sort of uncomfortable.i lied when I told her something Came up.I thought I could do this because it's been ages  i had dinner with anyone apart from my family and David .after hours of contemplating I went because I had to keep my promise. I'm man of my words.she made pasta,rice and stew that reminded of my mum.

   Flashback
  Damien and Dave come downstairs right now!
   'Mum We are coming' I shouted

     I was playing games with Dave we wanted to end the game and go downstairs but my mum has been calling us to come downstairs to have dinner.

  'Dave let's just end it here mum is going to have our heads' I said to him
      
    He agreed and we went downstairs together

   You boys can't even help me in the kitchen my mum pouted
  'But mum we are not girls.our little sister can help you.' I replied
   'Shut up she's sick and what do you mean you boys are not girls'. She said as she glared at us
   
     We laughed because she has told us before that it's important to know how to cook so in the future you'll have no problem when it comes to taking care of yourselves.
   
    'Okay okay sit down boys.dad is not around he'd be coming back late today I'm going to check up on your sister.'mum said then left
    
     'Dave look there's enough pasta'
  
   'Yummy' he said smiling

   Mum entered and said 'Uhm your sister Is getting better she has no appetite to eat pasta I'll make soup for her later maybe she would try and eat later.okay now let's pray and dig in.dave pray for us please '

    'I thank God for providing this food on our table and blessing us with each other.i pray he continues to provide for us and others .'
  
    After he prayed we went to eat.i ate enough I liked pasta so much though i ate anything.

   End of flashback
 
  Gripping the spoon tightly as her food brought back memories.she rambled then just then I got myself and assured her she did good.

feeling stupid for making her feel like she didn't try after she probably tried her best and  waited for hours for me to show up .i ate quietly as silence took over the place.i asked her few questions and found out she is 24 and her job is not related to what she studied.

well I'm suprised she didn't know who I was.i answered proudly when she asked me some questions via my work.we spoke for sometime though I kept everything plain because I don't know how this is done with anyone else .I thanked her for dinner.

    She hugged me i stiffened then put my arms around her waist.i felt good being in her soft arms.i can't remember when last I had such a comfort.Usually when ever I felt down and David was around. He would pat my shoulders which meant everything would be fine though I drink most times to forget.she awkwardly came out of the embrace.

i looked into her eyes they held emotions like love,want just all I needed too or maybe I just needed a friend I don't have any apart from David not that I'm complaining I love him but she made me feel something I am afraid and not ready of.

    Snapping me out of my thoughts 'would we meet again?' she questioned

        I couldn't use my words because I'd have to look at her face.i nodded then quickly said goodnight and left.

I didn't know if I could meet her again she reminded me of so many things.i'm afraid to let anyone come close after my sisters' death I became distant.my parents tried to help but didn't succeed,david tried multiple times and succeeded after my parents death when my life became dull and had no meaning.

I completely broke down but David stood by me and was there for me no matter how tiring it was.he didn't give up on me.i don't want to let anyone in and lose them too.i almost lost dave once I know how it felt.after years of building my walls and getting stronger to come over their death a bit and see reasons to live I can't let myself to break down again.

But Amelia is a nice and beautiful girl.something about her made me feel like I needed her.im so thankful she didn't try to talk about family I would have snapped at her somehow.im a grown ass man but I lost my family at a very young age which makes me hurt anytime I think about them.

i feel my sisters pain she didn't even complete high school.she didn't start her menstruation i was willing to take care of her when she started,she didn't go to college,she didn't see me make it and grow into a man.i wish they stayed to see the man I've become and how successful I am though I know they are proud of me.i feel tears rolling down my cheeks taking deep breaths I wipe them off.im not going to feel sympathy towards myself that's plain pathetic.

    'Hey have you reached home?just checking up on you.'Amelia texted

      Shit now I feel like an asshole I'd have texted her after I fled from her home.i mean who even displays this kind of character.i wasn't trained this way.i might be strict but I still have my morals.I can't even reply now I will reply later. David interrupted my thoughts because he's the one calling I picked

    
         how's Italy treating you? I said

     'Fine.shes just so happy it's really nice to put a smile on somebody else's face besides yours.' He answered

        'Are you now a bisexual?'. I teased him

       ' I know you love me.id be coming back soon.how is work ? Don't you think it's high time you got yourself a girlfriend?'

        'Work is fine .arent you eager to dump me I thought you loved me.'I said with a little smile on my face.

     'You know I want what's best for you.' He said

    'that's enough go and attend to your girl before she cuts off your manhood thinking you're already cheating on her'

     'Haha bye dammy' he teased

  Chuckling I put my phone on the table I know he wants what best for me and I know he's right but when I'm ready I would get myself one.i forgot about Amelia I texted her I'm home and she'd take care.i enjoyed her company though I didn't show It maybe next time would try to loosen up a little.though I'm getting a little comfortable with her.

      I walked into the kitchen to see my nana she has been sort of a mother figure to me.she made sure I ate and not kill myself working don't get me wrong I like my job that I became an addict.she is always there to pull me out of my office how can I forget her.

she and david have been there for me and they have both tried for me.i don't know how to pay them back most especially dave because I'm already paying for nana's daughters' tuition fees and all her expenses.i paid for nana's bills when she was sick and lot more but all of these are nothing compared to the true love she has showed me in the littlest ways.

Dave I owe him my life yes I've helped him when he was bankrupt.i made him the head chef in one of my restaurants I even barely go there so he practically owes it.For his birthday gift I would transfer his name on papers so he'd legally own it.