Unforgettable Crush

16.Forth's decision

Q: What happen to Forth to cause him panic attack, just when everything was going okay. Any guess??

Forgive my grammar mistakes

Forth's POV

I should be an actor instead of being a MD in some big company. Why is it so? Well, because I have been acting ever since  I saw Beam broke down when he met with his step mother.

What kind of acting you say??

Hmm...let's see.

Trying to act fine while I am still broken from inside.

Trying to make myself look mentally stable while I am still scared that I might do something to harm myself.

Trying to look happy while I am still sad.

Trying to look carefree while I am still scared that I will do something which will Beam upset again and he will end up leaving me.

There are many more other things too, but let's not talk about it right now.

I admit that I am much better ever since Beam is back into my life and I will do everything in my power to let Beam stay with me for rest of my life. But when I noticed that Beam already has so many things to deal with his life, I decided to look good and let him not worry about me.

I am happy,  but still somethings and some people in my life somehow always make me feel down.

I was at company doing some work when this guy Sam whom I met earlier also came to my office to hand me some file.

"Here is the file of our next meeting Khun Jaturapoom, I need to give it to Khun Baramee so please sign it ." he said handling me file.

"Okay and please call me Forth, I prefer that more. And take a seat please." I said taking file from him.

I started reading file before singing it, while Sam was siting on chair opposite to me.

"That's nice ring you have on your finger Khun Forth." he said making me look up from file.

"Ohh..thanks." I said and start reading file again.

"You know what's weird?" he said again.

I sign the file and gave him back.

"What?" I said.

"Khun Baramee also have the same kind of ring on his finger. Are you two, you know.."

"Yes, we are together. Got any problem?" I said with raised brow.

"No no..I am not homophobic or something. Well, that explains lot of things." he said getting up and taking file.

"What things?" I also get up from my chair and gave him questionable look.

"You, becoming MD within few months just after joining the company. I know you are talented and much more smarter than anyone else for this post, but still."

"Still what? And Beam and I weren't even talking when I joined this company, it's not...Tsk!! why the hell even I am explaining myself to you? You can go now." I said in firm tone.

"I will, but remember Khun Forth. He is Beam Baramee and he can get anyone as his life partner or lover or whatever he want. You should think really hard why he choose to stay with you. Maybe it's due to pity or something?

News spread fast Khun. We know you had very sad and lonely life. We all know how lonely you are. You have no one in your life except for your friend Phana. Your own parents even abandoned you for some reason and didn't even talk to you until recently. Who knows Khun Baramee might end up leaving you, when he will find someone much better and not as broken as you are Khun Forth.