The Making of Us [EDITED]

18\\ The Twelfth Month

18\\ The Twelfth Month

*Edited.                     02NOV2016

"Time's ticking,
It's a ticking time bomb."

The moment I woke up, I felt so lazy.

Tamad na tamad akong bumangon lalo na ng nakita ko ang kalendaryo na nasa drawer katabi ng kama ko.

December.

Ano nga bang meron sa December?

Isa isahin natin.

On the 20th Prelim

It’s not that I hate exams but I don’t like them either. Dagdagan pa na December ngayon. As much as possible ayokong pumasok tuwing December gusto ko lang matulog, ang lamig kasi.

25th Christmas

I also don’t have a grudge on Christmas but I don’t have somebody to celebrate it with. Given the conflict within our family we are isolated from our relatives. So Christmas is not a big deal for us.

31st New Year’s Eve

Oh. I’m quite excited with this one. I love fireworks.

Okay that’s all! Nothing about December that bores you but it bores me.

Why?

Because….

Oh! I forgot to add.

On the 28th…..

Is my birthday.

My 17th birthday.

And this is why I don’t really like December.

Yes, I have a full access on my father’s credit card. Yes, I can ask for anything I want but only materials things.

What I can’t have is the feeling of having a birthday where your family is complete together with your friends to celebrate it.

And obviously I don’t have any of those.

My birthday is not shown on facebook. If there is, it’s a fake one.

No one knows my birthday except for me and my family and probably my relatives too but couldn’t care less because of our family’s dispute.

So let’s just skip December….

Another month passed smooth naman ang mga nangyayari, no encounter with the both of them. Civil lang, ganun and as if I care about them. They’re ignoring me and I have no problem with that, the feeling is mutual. Mas pabor pa sa akin iyon dahil hindi na ako mag-eefort lumayo.

But I have this bad feeling about Kate. Nahuhuli ko siyang nakatingin sa akin na para bang minamatyagan lahat ng kilos ko. It’s really weird if you ask me. She’s creeping me out konti na lamang at masasapak ko na siya.

Remember when I said let’s just skip December?

Just when I thought it’s going to be just another day for me and I hoped it’s just another day for me.

But no.

My parents did celebrate my birthday. Dad skipped working and mom too.

We had a small party and the best part is, it was my Mom who cooked.

Lorraine and Megan came together with some of our blockmates, I asked them how they knew and just said that I’m the one who invited them. According to them I even said ‘inform others’.

And when I figured, it must be Rey.

That pakielamero of a Kuya!

“Dana, let’s go?”

Tumayo na ako at sumakay sa sasakyan. My ‘family’ decided to go watch movie. We’ve been doing this lately and they being super nice.

Konti na lamang maniniwala na ako na magiging maayos din kami.

“Rey, what do you want for your graduation gift?”

“Uhmm…Let’s see Dad….A trip to Paris? Korea maybe? With my little sister.”

Nilingon ko naman agad siya sa tabi ko. Anong pinagsasasabi nito?

Tinaasan ko lang siya ng kilay.

“What? You don’t want that?” tanong niya.

Umismid na lamang ako. “Whatever.”

“Then it’s settled.” Dad announced.

Not bad. I might actually like it.

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(First week of February)

“Dana!! O My Gee!! You  have to see this!”

Kakapasok ko pa lamang sa classroom ng hinila ako ni Lorraine.

“Anong meron at napapa-english ka?” tanong ko kay Lorraine habang lumalapit sa bulletin board.

“You’re the Top One!! Natalo mo si Miguel!”

Ranking? Ng hindi pa tapos ang klase? Eh hindi pa nga tapos ang sem na ito?

“Anong kalokohan yan. Walang kwenta.” Yun lang at umalis na ako.

I know I can beat him it just that kakatapos palang ng midterm, pwede pa siyang makabawi. They should have post that after this sem. So stupid ano bang naisipan nila. Gusto na naman ata nilang ipressure ang students nila to fight for their ranks.

……………………………

Umabsent si Lorraine sa last subject dahil may biglaang emergency sa bahay nila and since badtrip ako ngayong araw na ito tatambay na lamang ako sa garden. A haunted garden to be specific.

I’m not scared though, as long as there are rumours the lesser the people will go here. Tama to solo ko ang garden.

Nakaupo na ako sa bench at lahat lahat ng may marinig akong kaluskos.

Asar may ibang tao pa yata.

Agad ko namang pinuntahan ang pinanggagalingan ng ingay and there I saw the two love birds.

Picnic? Ang korni ha.

No wonder bumababa ang ranking nilang dalawa. So pathetic.

I hate them both.

Bumalik na ako sa kinauupuan ko at nakinig nalang ng music. And landi kasi nila eh.

Maya maya lamang nakita kong umalis na si Kate na may kausap sa phone, mabuti na lamang talaga at hindi nila ako basta basta makikita sa kinauupuan ko.

“Mom…I’m so sorry. Babawi ako sa finals…..No, hindi naman po……” I smirked. Looks like nalaman na ng parents niya ang ranking. Poor her.

Tuluyan na nga siyang nawala sa paningin ko.

“You’re spying on us?” natigilan ako sa narinig ko. So much for hiding.

Kinalma ko ang sarili ko. I am not affected, I will never be.

“You think so?” sarcastic kong sabi at inirapan siya.

“You know…” hindi pa siya nakuntento at umupo pa talaga sa tabi ko.

“If you like me that much sana hindi ka nagloko. Edi sana-“

Nanginginig ako sa galit, sa inis, sa lahat na. he’s evil. Anong nangyari sa kanya?

Is this some sort of revenge?

“Don’t flatter yourself too much.” I said between gritted teeth.

“Whatever. So nag-eenjoy ka bang panuorin kami?” he smirked.

Hindi ko na kaya. Tumayo na ako dahil pakiramdam ko nag-iinit na ang gilid ng mga mata ko.

Alam kong alam niyang gusto ko siya and he’s using it against me.

“Ano bang nangyari sayo.” mahina pero may diin kong sinabi.

“I’m better. All thanks to you.” He said at nilagpasan na ako.

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