We fell in love in a hopeless place.

chapter-ninety- i can't lose her.

Leonors pov 

Today was being the worst day of my life. I can't believe I wasnt there for my best friend. I wasn't there for hailey. I didnt even realize how she was feeling but even worse than that i dont know if she is okay or not. I cant lose her. Right after I saw finn's message I just ran to the hospital and as lilia was with me she did it too. I saw finn sitting in a chair crying so i just ran to him and hugged him. he hugged me back. " finn how's she?" I asked. " I don't know. the doctors dont let me in." he said "she is going to be okay alright? s-she has to"I said almost crying. he hugged me again and I hugged him back. lilia was telling finn how everthing was gonna be okay and I was hoping. hoping this was all a nightmare and when I wake up I would see hailey,alive and okay. but it wasnt,it was real and I was just hoping more than anything that hailey was gonna be okay. I sat next to finn and lilia waiting for someone to come to me and tell me how hailey is. I saw jack walking into the hospital and as much as I didnt want to talk him right now I ran to hug him. I couldn't stop crying,I am so worried about hailey. he hugged me thight and whispered " she is gonna be okay. I promise". I saw finn and lilia talking so I decided to sit with Jack in other sit. " I'm sorry. this is all my fault." I said " this is not your fault!" he said and I looked away" I dont mean just this. I mean everthing. jack,I'm a mess. " I said and he was gonna say something but I just kept talking "I'm sorry i kissed you,I should haven't.  I am not saying that because I dont like you it's the opposite I like you,a lot but I'm with jaeden and that was wrong. I'm also sorry because I have feelings for jaeden as well. I'm sorry that I ruin your friendship. Im sorry I was being so selfish and wasnt there for hailey when she needed me. I'm so sorry. I know I dont deserve any of you and I just wish you guys never met me." I said while sobbing. he looked at me and hugged me and hold both of  my hands" no. you dont have to be sorry for anything. none of this it's your fault. I understand what you are feeling ,you need time and that's okay. just know no matter what I am always going to be there for you,as your friend. dont put yourself down like that okay? I love you and it hurts a lot to see you like this. you don't deserve to feel that way. jaeden will understand I'm sure." I just smiled and put my hand on his shoulder.
i saw finn and lilia running to us." GUYS! we can see hailey!! the doctors said she is resting right now but that she is okay. she is so strong" finn said and we all ran to the room where hailey was. I couldn't be more happy right now