The boy next door

Chapter 10

"So, what do you want to do now?", Jungkook asked taking a step closer to me which made me step back and press my back against the wall in this tiny ass room.

"Jungkook..", I whispered getting lost in his eyes as he moved closer. He was only inches away from me, his hand resting on my waist and his eyes focused on my lips.

I could see every detail in his face: his perfectly shaped and smooth lips, his striking profile and his hazelnut brown eyes filled with desire.

Yes, he is super handsome. Yes, he is one of the hottest boys in school. And yes, I do still like him in some way, but I'm not one of those girls. Girls like the girl from before, with whom he went upstairs.

"Stop it", I said this time louder and more fierce pushing him away. The alcohol was rushing through my veins, but still I knew I didn't want this. This wasn't me.

"What is it this time? Is it because you like me? I don't want to deal with feelings", he said pulling away.

"No, this time it is NOT because of you", I started to become angry. I didn't want him to keep having that power over me just because I had had feelings for him. "I'm just not one of those girls who you can f*ck once and then send them away. I'm better than that!"

Without knowing a few hot tears started to stream down my cheeks and my throat began to get sore.

I turned the door knob and ran out of the room, out of the house. Fresh air. Away from the party.

I was sitting in the living room after I calmed down sipping on my tea and waiting for Soojung to come home. I decided to let her stay at the party, because I didn't want to ruin her night, only because mine was.

But it didn't take long until she came after me and the door bell rang. "Y/N!", she said and hugged me, "I'm so sorry for you. I was so worried when you just stormed off."

"Hey, it's okay. You should have stayed at the party, I'm fine", I explained and let her in. "No way, sweetie. Whatever happened between you, I want to hear it if you feel confident to tell me. Maybe I can help, or just listen", she suggested and sat on the couch.

"Yes, I'll tell you. I trust you", I admitted and walked into the kitchen, "I'm making tea for you. This might take longer."

And after one or two hours of talking she knew everything and reassured me. She said some things which really helped me.

"Ugh, Jungkook is such a ***", she cursed, "I don't understand why he uses girls like that. Especially you, you're so pure. You're exactly his type, I think you could change him."

"Um, I don't know if I'm the right person for that", I said chuckling flustered, "I'm done with him. I don't want to get hurt anymore."

"I understand, you're better off. I'm by your side", she said and winked, "let's go to sleep then."

The alcohol and my argument with Jungkook made it hard for me to fall asleep but finally I found some sleep.

After Soojung has left I cleaned and tidied the house so my parents wouldn't get a heart attack because it was so messy.

I sat on the couch to breathe when the door bell rang. Maybe Soo forgot something.

I opened the door and I didn't expect him. Hair messy, big grey hoodie and sweatpants but still so handsome it made me blush.

"What do you want?", I asked getting angry. "Y/N, let me explain or at least apologise", he said insistently. He took a step closer to me.

"I give you thirty seconds", I answered crossing my arms. I wouldn't make it easy for him.

"What I did yesterday wasn't right and I want to apologise because I made you feel uncomfortable", he said and it felt like he really meant it, "I promise, I won't lose one single word about what happened two years ago anymore."

I was a bit surprised by his words so I didn't say anything at first.

"Do you accept my apology?", he asked hopefully. "How do I know that you will keep your promise also in school?", I asked the important question.

"I don't know, you have to trust me. You know, after I saw you so frightened and vulnerable during the thunderstorm, I don't know... I know you can trust me", he explained looking on the ground.

I blushed but it also shocked me. I never saw that side of him. Was he even the same person?

"And to be honest, you're really someone special. You give me the feeling that I have a value", he admitted scratching his neck.

"Have you even sobered up?", was the only thing I could say in that moment. He looked up and started laughing.

"I guess, not 100%. But I mean what I say", he said.

I laughed too and nodded. "Okay, I believe you. I give you one chance. Proof that what you are saying is right", I said giving in.

"Thank you, Y/N", he said seeming relieved.

Awkward silence. "Soo.. do you want to help me clean up?", he asked smirking. "Oh wow, really? Did you only apologise to make me help you?", I asked chuckling.

"Maybe", he said innocently. But I knew, this time, it was his true self. He showed his true emotions and I could trust him.

"Okay. You owe me", I said and followed him next door.

We had a lot of fun cleaning up. Sometimes I caught myself staring at him, for example when he took off his hoodie and his shirt shifted I could see parts of his toned lower body. Or when he was lifting the table and his tshirt outlined his biceps.

I need to get over him. If you want this friendship to work, I need to stop looking at him as if I was going to eat him.

I shook my head and tried to think of a way to distract me while I dried the cups. I looked over to the couch and saw the fluffy pillows lying on the couch. I smirked sneaking to the couch grabbing one and threw it at him.

At first it caught him by surprise but he quickly realised what was going on. He laughed and threw it back at me.

We ended up in a huge pillow fight, luckily nothing got destroyed. He couldn't reach any of the pillows anymore so he decided to tickle me, which I HATED. I almost couldn't breathe.

I lost my balance as he tickled me so I held onto his shirt. We both fell on the couch, he on top of me.

Suddenly it became quiet. We stopped laughing and he locked his eyes with mine. Nobody moved for a while and we just stared into each other's eyes.

I could feel his breath on my skin and I looked at his shiny lips. No. Stop it, right now.

I coughed getting rosy cheeks and he quickly got off me and fixed his clothes.

"I think I should go now. We're done, aren't we?", I asked blushing and got up.

"Yes, thank you very much. It was way more fun with you", he said and smiled at me. I nodded smiling back and walked to the door. "Bye, see you in school", I said and quickly left.