Helvete Mafia University

Chapter Thirty-Four

「Chapter XXXIV: Love and Confusion」

「Tamara Quinn」

Saktong pagkatapos ng aming usapan ay agad na rin kaming bumalik ni Xia sa aming silid, hindi ko alam kung kakabahan ba ako o matatakot dahil sa aking nalaman sa araw na ito. It's feels like half of my body was buried below the ground because of this doomed place I am in right now. Bukod sa hindi na nga ako makapag-isip ng maayos heto na naman at may nalaman akong hindi kaaya-aya lalo na't sangkot dito sina Bryle. Trembling, I gathered all my strength and walked outside my room━I need to tell Bryle what Xia just mentioned. Pag labas ko ng aking silid ay naabutan ko si Xia na nag lilinis ng kanyang silver dagger habang ito'y nakaupo sa may sofa. 

"Unnie, saan ka pupunta?"tanong nito kung kaya't napabuntong hininga na lamang ako at linapitan siya. 

"I can't just sit here knowing that Bryle and his brothers are in danger Xia, hindi ko maatim na may mangyaring masama sa kanya."without myself even knowing I uttered those words, despite of nervousness Xia managed to smile at pointed her index finger on me. 

"Ikaw unnie ha, napapansin ko nag aalala ka kay Bryle, tell me do you finally realized that he liked you and you liked him too? Ayiieeeee!"nakangising giit nito rason para mapangiti ako ng mapakla, yes, I like him━━or should I say I am slowly falling for him which will lead to love. 

"I don't like him."

"Eh ano unnie?"Xia asked.

"I don't know if this is the right time to tell you but I think━━I think━━I━━"tangina bakit hindi ko masabi?

"You are falling for him aren't you? It's fine unnie, Bryle is a nice guy, he is caring despite his anger issues he is kind I assure you that."giit nito kung kaya't napangiti ako, yes, Bryle had this anger issues but he is kind and caring━━I am falling yes, but there is something inside me that wants me to stop this emotions.

"Maybe you are falling but what you felt for Zachary also forbid you for surrendering to that emotion, you can't decide or utter any without confirming your feelings━but anyway it was just normal to be confused in love. Minsan kase we need to experience pain and heartache just for us to determine who we really love."Xia uttered before she pat my shoulder and walked inside her room━━habang ako heto nakatulala dahil sa kanyang sinabi. Maybe she was right, love is about risking your heart, love is problem, love is all about pain and delight. Confusion is part of loving someone, maybe I am feeling something for Bryle but I am hesitating because of Zachary. Napatulala na lamang ako sa kawalan habang iniisip ang bagay na iyon, I don't have any idea what is going on not only because it was my first time feeling this but also because our situation. 

Nabalik ako sa aking wisyo ng tumunog ang aking cellphone kung kayat mabilis ko itong kinuha mula sa aking bulsa at sinagot ang tawag. 

"Hello?"

"Tamara, where are you?"

It's Zachary,

"Ahm...nasa dorm room ako kasama si Xia bakit?"tanong ko rito.

"Hmmm... just stay there okay? I'll fetch you."deklara nito, mag p-protesta na sana ako ng bigla niyang ibaba ang tawag rason para mapabuntong hininga ako. I never thought that he will be this kind to me, I mean what I really first saw him he had this dangerous aura that coiled around him. Nakakatakot siya back then. Maya maya lamang ay biglang may nag doorbell sa aming main door kung kaya't mabilis akong tumayo at pinagbuksan ito he's already here.