Have some less-angst for a bit (still angst though but less) (This is also somewhat short cause I quickly wanna get onto the next chapter so sorry 'bout that)
Deceit lay on his bed, staring up at the ceiling. What the hell happened yesterday-? Remus was blushing around someone like him?! Probably just him imaginaing things.... Or it's just Remus being himself and weird-
Remus would never like someone like him..-
He was to broken for him anyways...
Deceit's eyes trailed to the wall and he focused on a particular photo of him and Remus-from three years ago. They were both genuinely smiling in it. God, how long has it been since he's smiled like that? Weeks? Months? Years? Who knows -
He sighed and he looked away from the photo, staring at the wall beside him. His mind went back to the mess that Remus was when he came to see Deceit yesterday. That was his fault. Normally he'd laugh at people in emotional distress but Remus?
...
It was different...
Something about that was different...
He felt horridly horrible about it...
'Probably just a result of the depression-' he figured.
That still didn't feel right though...
Ugh, probably just him being stupid again-
What did it matter anyways? What else could be the reason?
Maybe that he-
N o
He shouldn't
He couldn't
He'd just fall into heartbreak-
Deceit groaned in annoyance with himself and rolled onto his side, curling up. He shouldn't think about things like this. Love? Useless. What was the point in such thing existing to HIM anyways? He didn't deserve it!
He rolled around to the other side of the bed and his eyes landed upon his journal. Sighing, he sat up and picked it up. He grabbed the pen beside it and began to write aimlessly. Something to pass the time, suppose.
I don't care
I shouldn't care
Yet I do
Why am I cursed like this?
What is this feeling?
Love?
I'm undeserving-
He'd never like me anyways-
Best not to get my hopes up-
Highly irregular from his usual butttttttt he wasn't feeling usual. Today was an odd day compared to his usual after all.
He was in love anyways.
Or was he-?
Probably not- he was probably just imagining things-
Oh who fucking knows what's going on-
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Forced Liar ~ Sanders Sides
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