One and only [Snames/Jeverus]

Chp 1 Not good enough

Severus' POV

It is another new day, but still my pressure are growing every single day, I can feel my thoughts scaring me every morning although Lucius and I are dating for a month. It is really creepy, those thought came back non stop no matter what he said.

For all I know, I as a half-blood is nothing to compare with Lucius, who is a pureblood. His family would have a fit if they ever found out. I know that Lucius never cared that much, but then he is not his father, who hate all kind that will stained their purest blood line.

There were times I wanted to break up with him, after all I'm just never good enough for him, my 'dearest' father had told everytime he laid eyes on me, and all I could say is it never end well. I never told Lucius what had happend in my household. Out of scared he will hate me, I never want him to get into this horrid mess.

"Good morning my love." Oh, that beloved voice that I rang like music to my ears. I turn and saw a beautiful sight of him, I can feel his arms snaking to my waist as he pull me closer to him.

"Good morning, to you too." I replied to him manage to smile which must look more like grimce. My voice are just so cracky, how am I to be with him. Someone so high up like him deserve better than such snarky person like me.

"Love, I told you so many times, don't push yourself too tight, you're already really perfect for me." He always seem to know what I'm thinking, such caring person he is but I cannot be selfish he deserve someone better than me.

"Luc, I'm just not good enough for you. I'm vain, dirt and unworthy for you. You should find someone better." I don't want to put on my dirt on him, he is too good for that.

"You aren't, and you never will be. You're intelligent, beautiful, cunning and many that no words could be able to discribe, Sev." he stated. He don't know what he is even talking about.

"No, a pureblood like you don't need to stain yourself, you need someone that could help you for your goals, someone like Cissy." I said. I can feel my tears start to flow, how pathetic of me.

"You don't know, Sev. I don't care about those prejudices shit of my father's. I never care, trust me, love, you are the best person in the whole wizarding world!" he exclaimed.

"Please, Luc. You never need such person like me. Any pureblood women are better than me. Merlins, even Bella is much better!" I cried out. I know I'm scared to lose him but his future is much more important to him. I couldn't block his way for my selfishness.

"I was not in my right mind when I confessed my undying love. I was just being stupid, not even knowing what the hell I'm doing. Let's just broke up, we're not suppose to be together. You will find someone worthy of your love and that person will never be me. Please Luc let me go, we maybe never be friends anymore, goodbye." with that, I run back to my dorm.

I can see the shocked look on his face when I run but I never stop to. When I went back to my dorm I lock my door with the strongest locking charm I know and start to cry like a coward I am. Good thing that Slytherins can have our own dorm rooms when we are fifth year for our OWLs. I heard someone –– probably Lucius –– out there banging the door asking me to come out to talk.

I couldn't do it, I can't give him any sign of hope. I need to leave far away from him so that he won't remember me. Then, he will start a life without a scumbag.

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A/N

chapter one is over, muahahahaha.....
Okay yesss, I'm a tincy wincy freaky but I know you all won't care much 'bout that bit of sillyness.

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