Falling slowly ...

⚠️smut alert!!!

Damien's pov:

"Good work guys. I think we can go home now." Ryan shouted.
I quickly left the set to meet y/n and see if she needs a ride, cause i dont know how she comes. And if she uses the bus, i can get a chance.
But she was gone. I know she wasnt doing anything while she was here, and it made no sense for her to stay, but i was really hoping she would be here.
"What happened dude?"
"Oh, hey Shayne. Wassup?"
"Nothing, lets go."
Oh yes, we were watching a movie tonight. I think it would take my mind off this situation.
I don't mind new people working around me, but trusting people doesn't come easy to me, especially if that person is from defy.
She doesn't seem bad, not now. But we still have to be careful. I don't care much about it, but the creative constriction is really messing up Shayne, Courtney and Ian. If this is gonna hurt them anymore, i wouldn't take it. This is my second family, and i cant let someone just treat them the way these people are treating them. Defy is already on our nerves and now they send a spy here. Moreover she is just an intern there. All the editors are pissed. Why wouldn't they be, all of them are at least 3 years experienced. Suddenly a newbie comes and gets the authority to boss around them. I am not making a mind about her, but I have to keep a close eye on her.
On the other hand though, i... I really hope she is not here for what we think she is. Nothing about her is bad. No, everything about her is beautiful. Beautiful? No, devine.
When she bumped into me in that cabin, and looked at me with those e/c eyes, those innocent eyes with her hair all messy, i really thought i was dreaming.
All the while she was talking to that a**hole, i couldn't help but observe her. She looked like she didn't care about how she looked. Pretty casual behaviour for an intern. I noticed that she only got good byes from one person. Not very interactive. Or either too much for others to handle.
When i invited her to see the shoot, she shot a smile at me. A smile. Her smile. Before I knew i was starring at her single crooked tooth. Crooked canine. How can someone make a.mistake look this cute?
Entire drive i had my mind on this thing. God, just get my mind off her so i van just enjoy a movie with my friend.

Three days have passed since she joined. Nobody in the office is getting cozy with her. Actually, i dont think we are talking to her that nicely either. I feel bad, but we can't let her in, not before we know she is trustable.
"She is clear." Courtney came in, whispering audibly.
"What?" Ian asked perplexed.
"I talked to her about it, and she is a defy victim too. I even cleared it out from a friend at defy." Courtney was beaming with happiness. She must be. Out of all of us, she was the only one who thought y/n and Jacob had a very fishy conversation. Like the conversation had more to it than what met the eyes.
"You have friends at defy?" Shayne asked her.
Poor guy. I jist hope its a girl friend, not a guy friend, cause then i will have to listen Shayne talk about why he should not have feeling for Courtney, AGAIN.
"That's not the point. She is clean."
"You sure?" Ian asked.
"Yeah dude."
Oh sweet lord, she is good. I knew it. I knew my gut wasnt wrong.
The whole day went by and i didnt see her. She was in the squad office all day. I was happy that i decided to have my lunch today with Shayne, cause otherwise I wouldn't have known about it. I wouldn't have known that i can think about her the way i wanted to.
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Each night, it was a struggle to not think about her.
I was lying on my bed now. I didn't have my dinner. I don't want to wait anymore, now that I know I don't have to.
I closed my eyes, so that I could see her.
Are you thinking about me?
She is in the extra room, sitting on the table, legs crossed, her pencil skirt teasingly ridding up to her mid thigh. With that image, i strip myself waist below and take my member in my hand.
Are you THINKING about me?
That emphasis was enough to tense my insides. I could feel myself getting harder, and the image of her slowly, sensually rubbing her thighs together was just slowly working its magic.
Y/n, i have never been so hard. What are you doing to me?
I started stroking myself.
Are you imagining my mouth there?
Yeah.
Then shouldn't you open your eyes and see me doing it.
You will vanish if i open my eyes.
I won't.
You will.
No, I won't. I promise.
I opened my eyes. Why? Did i just listen to my imagination?
No, i am not your imagination Damien, i am your desire.
She was still here. Still in her clothes. Still beautiful. Still making me tremble with pleasure.
Your hands must be tired. You have been in control too long. Should I help.
I wanted to shout. I wanted to shout 'yes', but all that came out was a muffled sound. Muffled by my own lust.
I saw her bend down, her eyes on me the entire time.
"Take your eyes away y/n."
Why
"It is too much for me to handle."
She smiled at that.
Honey, I haven't even started yet.
Oh fuck. She will kill me.
I could feel my hands getting tired, slowly inching towards numbness. I could imagine her down there. Her hair swiped to one side, her eyes starring at me.
Am i pushing you?
Damien, should I stop?
"NO. Don't stop. Ne... never stop."
I hated my voice for shaking. I felt dirty. But the vision of her mouth around me, her head bouncing up and down, her eyes... her eyes at me were too good. They overpowered the dirt.
"Y/n, i... I am com, coming."
Please come on me. Come for me.
"Stop talking woman. Jus.. just do what...you...are...do... doing."
Yes honey.
I could feel my breath shaky, my insides tight, my muscles tensed and my vision blurring.
Please come, honey.
That word, again and again and again and again from her mouth was driving me insane.
My hands were wet and tired.
What should I call you?
Honey?

Fuck!

Sweety?
Dami?
Baby?
Sir?
Her first word was a lot, but listening her call me 'sir'!
Then sir it is.
Fuck yeah.
Are you coming for me, sir?
My body couldn't take any longer, and it gave in on that word. Sir.
I would like her to call me that.
No, i would love her to call me that.

⚠️Smut over.

The next day in office, i still couldn't stop thinking about her.
From what i heard, people were now trying to make up to her for the rude behaviour. But what do i make up for? Rude behaviour, or imagining her in the most disrespectful way on earth.
Disrespectfully pleasurable way.

"Hey people."
Oh no, its her. Why is she here?
"Y/n, so good to see you." Mari said gleefully.
It certainly is good to see her.
"Yeah, i thought i might come and see you guys again."
I tried to act normal, but I couldn't look her in the eyes. I hate guilt. Worst feeling ever. God this is gonna be a long day, or week, or even year. I won't be able to look her in the eyes that easily.

Y/n pov:
I am glad we got that cleared.
Everyone has been dramatically good to me after that. People are talking to me and even hanging out, or at least trying to. It's not their fault that I am not so good at social interactions, or making friends. Bit all i know is that Courtney and I are now very good friends. We both needed it.
Everyone is normal to me. Everyone but Damien.
I went to the games office the next day, thinking that he would talk to me more now. But now he wasn't even looking at me properly.
I don't know what happened. I tried to think everything that happened between us, which is not a lot. Did i scare him off with something? Bit what?
Of course you scared him. You don't need anything, being you is enough. He probably thinks you are too silent for him. I mean, he definitely has girls swarming around him, why would he even think about you?
I am not surprised. Hurt? Yes. But not surprised. He is not my first crush that i scared off. He is not my first crush. Is he my crush? Crush? Is he just a crush?
Shut up y/n. Its just a stupid attraction. And you are not a teenager to have crushes. Just stop being stupid. Stop being you.

Hey everyone. Sorry that this chapter is SOOO bad. Please don't judge me on THAT part. I am a girl and i really don't know how things work for guys. Also, thank you so much for reading this. I will slowly bring the defy down fall and new Smosh into the story but for now it is just this. Also there is gonna be a shourtney shipping cause, why not😊? Thanks again for reading.