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If I had two hearts, I'd fall for you twice ___________________
Actually Jin didn't talk me and just said 'nevermind' and proceeded to his room, and so that kept me up until now
I was almost there, to telling him the feelings that I've been hiding from him. Yet, what if it's a bad idea
I am aware that if it reaches to the other members and especially Jin they wouldn't be happy because Jungkook loves me. I know it's wrong but I don't know how to stop it
Because the more I was denying it, the more was it digging deeper in my heart
Living with Yoongi was a bad idea from the very start, he brought me back to reality and placed my old attitude and demeanor back to place
I'm finally sane again thanks to him
But nothing's alright between me and the other's and Taehyung, I miss him so bad and I think I'm ready to go back and forgive him
It was childish of me to get in anger for his lies that were meant to protect me and my mental health, because he knew I was sensitive in all things, small arguments and shouts pain and make me cry all so easily
And he lied just to take in my smile for much longer, I guess the Mafia cycle of one person isn't that easy to stop due to controversial arguments
So supposingly it wasn't easy to leave that kind of life once you enter, and so after pondering for a while I grab my phone and saw the initial time to get up
I again went into the room of curiosity and stare blankly at the dress, I shouldn't be so touchy with Jin's personal things, as if so so personal things right now especially this
But it's calling out for me
And so I wear it again, feeling the dress grab unto my body so so perfectly as if I really was the one destined for that dress. And when I do finish with the clothing I go back to the area of the polaroids of Jin and the girl that looked like me
I took the one who had him standing on her grave and placed it in my palms, I again go the window and step on the wide sill while feeling the air
This is it, this is the day I'm telling Yoongi what I feel
I squeal as I jump and land on the large bark of the tree, I sigh and somehow felt my legs weaken making me sit for a while leaning against the bark of the tree
I feel the air building up with my emotions, I clasp my hands together kissing them as I shut my eyes "dear Lord, I have fallen in love with a Mafia once more, spare me"
I breathe out while staring at the radiating stars. Huhuhu Namjesus help me get the courage to tell the devil of what I am in bliss for I am in fear right now
