His Changing Heart (Sesshomaru X Oc)

Chapter 19

We all began our journey to find the spector. Kagome found me and Inuyasha by the tree. When she did I gave them space to talk. Or so I thought it was space. I could still hear everything even when Kagome's heart spiked. It wasn't space that I was giving them. I was running. Running from Kagome.

We came here together and I up and left her for my own agenda. I didn't even tell her. I can't help but wonder if she's angry with me. We've only had small talk since I've been back. I don't have the heart to ask her if she's angry either.
"Who are you exactly?" a small childish voice broke my thoughts. Looking at the small boy with pointy ears and a bushy tail I smiled. Fox. That's all my instincts screamed.

"I'm Mitsuki. I'm from Kagome's time." introducing myself keeping my friendly smile. Children have always been my weakness.
"Since when did Kagome's time have the Queen of foxes?" he caught me off guard.
"Queen of foxes?" furrowing my brows in confusion.
"Yeah. My father told me about you. He said if I ever find a fox demon that's all white and has nine tails that I should treat her with the utmost respect because she's the Queen." he informed.

So now I'm a queen? This just gets harder and harder to understand.
"Shippo, do you know anything else about me?" I queried.
"Oh yes, lots! Father told me many things about you Lady Mitsuki!" he jumped down to walk beside me. I noticed his little legs and wondered how he could keep up so easily. Chuckling to myself I picked him up placing him to sit behind my head on my shoulders.

"How about we make a deal? You can ride on my shoulders but I get to pick your brain about me. Deal?" brightly smiling I offered him my deal and he joyously accepted my offer. So the rest of the way I picked his brain of the things his father told him. Often it came with stories and I couldn't be happier to hear until a specific one broke my heart as if it happened to me.

Making it to camp Shippo had already fallen asleep so I sat him up against Kaede. Kagome tried to speak to Inuyasha but it seems he had fallen asleep. But if she could hear his heart rate when she said his name she'd know he was faking it. This must be a hard thing for him to do. Sitting down beside the fire I closed my eyes engulfing myself with the warmth that seeped through my clothes and straight to my skin.

I had a child in my past life. From Shippo's story, she had deep black hair darker than the night sky if it had no moon or stars. Eyes bluer than any ocean to be seen. She looked nothing like her mother...like me yet looked everything like us. The night she was born was also the night her life ended. A terrible demon had ended the child's life in only a matter of hours that she even lived. My heart panged with grief and hurt as if I was feeling my past lifes feelings.

"Mitsuki? Are you alright? You're crying." Kagome's voice making me snap my eyes open. Indeed I was crying. I did even notice. Listening for a moment I knew everyone other than Kagome was truly asleep. I sighed feeling more comfortable being caught in my state of vulnerability.

"I'm alright just..thinking." I tried to wave her off but I forgot this is Kagome I'm trying to wave off.
"Come on talk to me about it. It might help." she pushed as she sat on the opposite side of the fire from me.
"Is it Sesshomaru?" she whispered. My eyes widened in shock. How did she- Kaede. I'm gonna have to speak with that old woman.
"No it's not him," I replied slightly annoyed.

"Then what is it?" she pushed more causing me to sigh.
"Shippo...he told me a lot about my past life. Lives I should say. The fox- the Queen before me she had a daughter. The night she was born she only lived for a few hours. She was killed and after the queen took out her revenge she died a few years later from losing a battle. She went weak from the lack of sleep and malnutrition from the depression that took hold of her. I can feel her pain Kagome. How can I feel her pain?!" I stopped myself from shouting.

"Thats horrible.... Mitsuki you may feel her pain because she's a part of you. She's your past life. You learned something horrible about her and you sympathize with her. Kaede is right you really do have a big heart." she smugly replied. I shook my head with a small chuckle.

"You've changed a lot since we first got here even though it was only about a month ago. You seem stronger more capable. You laugh here, you smile, you joke, and get along with people here. You don't show it outwardly that you care but your actions show it. Also, I'm not mad at all that you helped Sesshomaru I think it's sweet. And I'm not mad that you left without saying anything. I understand why you did." she spoke from her heart and I could tell.

Another tear escaped my eye and I let it fall this time because it was a happy tear and I'll cherish it forever that someone could reassure me and make me feel so happy with their words.
"Thank you Kagome...for being my friend." her eyes opened wide in shock then her face turned the most happiest that I've seen.
"You're welcome, Mitsuki."