*WARNING*
-self-harm
-suicidal thoughts
-please don't read this if you are young! I don't wanna scar ur innocent life
-trigger warnings.
Only read this if you are a mature age!
*Jins pov*
"DINNER!!!" I scream and I instantly hear feet running towards the dining room.
Jungkook was the first to come rushing into the room staring at the food like he hasn't seen a meal in weeks!
"Hyung!! Food!!" He exclaims out of breath.
I sigh and wave him off. I mentally do a headcount before I give them the sigh that they can eat.
Ok, so Joon...
Hobi...
Tae...
Chimmy...
Kookie...
Yo-
Wait?!? Where's Yoongi? He almost always comes to dinner...But I mean he did skip breakfast...and lunch....was something wrong?
"Hyung what's wrong?" Jimin asks with a worried face.
"Oh uh- nothing, can someone get Yoongi?" I say wondering if I spaced out for that long.
"I'll do it" Najoom volunteered.
"Thanks" I mumble.
*Yoongis pov*
I'm standing in Infront of the mirror just staring at a giant heap of disappointment. I've only lost 21 pounds! I'm still so fat....I've decided to skip all the meals today instead of only eating little. I mean it's pretty simple since they don't pay attention to who shows.
Are you ready?
No....
What do u mean?
Please....I already cut today....
So?!? You deserve this! Letting the team down! Making them embarrassed of you!
Your right...
Of course, I am! Now, are you ready?
Yes...
I walk to the drawer that holds my precious razors. Thank god none of the members noticed them! I can only imagine what would happen....it's scary...
How about we do 15....?
Five For almost passing out during the concert...
Five For making the members worry...
And five For existing.....
Ok....your right...
I lift one of the blades up to my wrist and start my masterpiece. I watch as the blood drips down my arm like a modern art piece. I slice the blade higher up on my arm, onto my shoulder making sure not to spare an inch. I cut until the voice in my head is satisfied....
That is enough....now make sure to not eat until 2 more days. You need to lose weight faster!
Ok.....
*KNOCK KNOCK*
I jump almost dropping the blade that rested in my hands. I wonder who on earth would want to disturb me at this time?
"It's me Hyung" I hear Namjoons voice outside my wide strong door.
"Namjoon-ah? What do you want?" I say in a flat tone.
I hear a sigh come from the other side of the door...was he mad? Did I disappoint him again?!?
Of course, you did! You always have!
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I wasn't born without a heart
FanficThe members slowly start to notice a change in yoongi and he starts acting all "cold". The members wants to help but he turns them away. And they start acting cold to him back. But when they finally realize what's wrong will it be to late? would t...
