No Touching Allowed (mxm)

8

"Are you alright Zach" Adrian asked the next morning as he came down the stairs to the smell of Zach cooking breakfast.

"I'm okay Adrian, come and sit down the food will be ready In a minute, Zach said pulling out a breakfast stool for him.

Adrian could feel the tense atmosphere as a plate with a full English breakfast was put In front of him. 

"Thank you Zach" he said as Zach walked away and sat down on the stool the furthest away from him.

"What you doing Zach, why are you sat all the way over there, have I done something wrong?" Adrian asked.

"You have not done anything wrong Adrian."

"Then come at sit up here then."

Zach got up and took his plate and sat next to Adrian. "Talk to me Zach tell me what the Issue Is."

"It's nothing Adrian just forget It."

"You rushed off last night, then tried to sit as far away from me as possible, plus you won't even look at me so how can you say It Is nothing. We are meant to be honest with each other Zach so talk to me."

"You look like crap, did you not sleep?" Adrian asked as Zach turned his head to look at him.

Zach sighed "no I couldn't get to sleep, I had to much stuff going on In my head."

"What about?"

"Just stupid stuff, just forget about It Adrian."

"No, If there Is an Issue I need to know Zach."

"Fuck! okay, but It's embarrassing and confusing for me."

"That's ok, I won't judge you, you can tell me anything."

"You're the reason I could not get to sleep, I know we have only just met but my head Is so fucked up."

"How come." Asked Adrian looking confused.

"Because I don't know what Is happening to me. When I made the promise It was genuinely because I really wanted to help you and also expose your parents. I thought I could easily do stuff with you and keep It on the level, you know no feelings or nothing. I spent my whole life thinking I was straight, and I have spent my life not getting attached to anything or anyone since my parents and my gran passed. But last night everything fucked up. Everything I thought I was and all the walls I had surrounded myself In, they just came crashing down, I feel fucking exposed or something. I've never felt nothing for no one before and believe me I have been happy with that, but you, you confuse the fuck out of me."

"Why Zach, tell me why?"

"I don't know Adrian, fuck I really don't that's why I'm so confused."

"So about what you did to me last night, how did that make you feel? Be brutally honest with me Zach."

"I had never touched a man like that before, I've never wanted to, just the thought of It made my stomach turn, but with you, fuck I don't know, all I wanted to do was make you mine."

"So why did you rush off."

"Because I was scared, confused, frustrated, embarrassed, I don't fucking know, I just felt like my heart was going to explode out of my ribs. I just couldn't breath or even think straight when I was near you, even now my heart Is going ballistic, I don't know what Is happening to me Adrian. Even now just sat here, all I want to do Is fucking jump you. I have never wanted to do that to any fucker before. Fuck I'm just so fucked up."

"You are not fucked up Zach, I feel the same way only minus the confusion and a lot more frustration because of my phobia, but I already know what I want and I want you."