The Missing Gem

09 | Date

Nicole

"Oh! My! God!" 

"Jesus Diane, you don't have to sound like Janice!" Friends references always work with the show's two biggest fans. 

"Yes, I do! I can't believe he really had the balls to kiss you! He knows what he wants, that's good." 

"Oh my God, stop talking about him that way!" I laughed as I adjusted my laptop on top of the comfy colorful boho themed comforter while I took off my clothes and changed into my pajamas. "It's not like I'm exactly complaining."

"Oh right. I bet you wish he was in that bed with you right now." 

"Do you ever wash your mouth?" 

In my pink pajamas I crawled into bed and put the device on my lap, laughing along with her. It's at times like this that I am extremely thankful for timezone differences, and for Diane clocking out earlier today. 

"So, what does this all mean?" My best friend asked me, as if I knew.

"I don't know!" I exhaled loudly before picking up my London themed mug from the bedside table and taking a sip of the hot tea. "I like him, he's great but I didn't really want to jump into a relationship right now, especially after Matt. We were together for so long and it ended up the way that it did, you know how much it hurt me."

"So what? You're gonna be single forever just because one guy broke your heart?" She sounded outraged. 

"I didn't say that, Di. I just don't know if I am in love with him or not it's... too early to know."

"So, you go out and then you see how it goes and if your feelings evolve. That's usually how it works." 

I closed my eyes only to open them again and look at her face, her eyes boring into me even through a Skype call. 

"He sounded pretty confused too, so..." 

"Have you thought about the fact that this might be fate playing its cards?" She tilted her head to the side with a knowing look. "Can't fight that."

"Oh, shut up."

"How was it after the kiss?"

"Well we left the store, made our way to the station, got in the tube train and he went to his place and I went to mine and that was it. But it wasn't awkward or anything, we talked the whole time, like always."

"That's good!" I nodded and took another sip of my hot tea that I was becoming quite used to by now. "I think you two should talk about this again, see what you both want to do about it."

I agreed with her and after yawning a few times we hung up and I put my laptop on the bedside table lazily, wanting nothing more than to just cover myself with my blankets and go to sleep, after the long day and night I'd had. 

 * * *

Actually, talking about it proved itself to be much more harder than I ever thought it'd be.

For the next week I chose to spend most of my days inside the house, writing and writing and thinking about the kiss twenty four seven.

We kept talking through texts and kept on meeting up for our morning coffee at Magic Beans but I just couldn't help but chicken out every time I sat down in front of him and looked into his eyes, not being able to bring myself to actually talk about what happened at the record shop that infamous night.