Deadly Infatuation

50 - Him And I

~Starving- Hailee Steinfeld x Zedd~

I don't think I can find the words to express this feeling.

How do I explain the fact that as cheesy as it sounds, I only feel like I'm truly alive the minute Taylor's arms are around me. We've kissed a lot of times but there's something distinctive about this one, we don't even need words to tell each other how much we've missed one another.

I feel myself tremble slightly at the intensity of his lips as they move against mine and he tugs me closer to him. My heart is beating frantically in my chest and just when I think my legs will give, I push off of his chest to catch my breath. Despite what had gone on between us and how long it has been, I'm still left breathless.

Our foreheads are against each other when I decide to peek up at him. "Taylor, I'm sorry, please forgive me," I say quietly. "I know I hurt you by leaving and I truly am sorry-"
"That's a thing of the past, you're here now and to me, that's all that matters," Taylor breathes and I look at him in awe. How is he not pissed at me? I know I would've been.

"Taylor, I-"
"I don't care Tameron, all I ever wanted was to hold you in my arms again, I understand why you did it, I wasn't happy about it though, but I'm not holding it against you, I love you, regardless of whatever happens between us. And right now, I'm just glad you're here," Taylor tells me and I think my heart will burst.

I gasp in disbelief. "Taylor, I fucked up, badly and you're not even mad at me? Why are you so good to me? I don't deserve you, I mean, all I ever do is hurt you," I croak out. "Stop saying things like that, you deserve me Tameron, stop thinking so lowly of yourself. What I have with you, I don't want with anyone else, you're mine Tam, and I'm yours, I mean it, I will always be there for you, I could never hate you, never," Taylor says and I start getting emotional at his words.

I'm trying my hardest to blink back tears and man, I'm such a crybaby. I feel his hands wipe away at the tears that are running down my face. "Hey, don't cry, I'm right here," Taylor says gently. "No one's ever treated me the way you treat me, I'm just overwhelmed by it all," I explain.

"I know you don't want to hear it but I apologize for what I did, for giving up on us like that, I didn't know how to handle what I've been going through and that's no excuse but I promise I won't do that to you again," I say sincerely.

Without a word, Taylor pulls me into a warm hug. "I missed you, so much," I tell him. "I missed you too, babe, you have no idea," He says as he rests his chin on my head. "I missed everything about you, from your infinite food cravings to your horrible singing-"
"Hey!" I sulk at him and he just laughs at me.

"I love you," He murmurs. "I love you," I respond with all the sincerity in every fibre of my being. Taylor smiles at me, and I can't help but return the gesture. "Say it again," he demands. "What? I love you?" He nods and I chuckle before saying it. "Again," he says, nuzzling his nose against mine. "Taylor," I sigh, shaking my head playfully.

"Please, I love hearing you say it," he begs and I give in. "I love you Taylor." Without warning, he scoops me into his arms, bridal style, and I yelp in surprise. "Put me down!" I squeal and he just laughs before he sets me down on the ground again.

"Does this mean we're back together again?" He asks me. "Why do you even ask?" I throw my arms around him and he grins boyishly at me. Just before he's about to lean down and kiss me, we are interrupted by the sound of the door being swung wide open. Taylor groans loudly in exasperation at the intrusion.

"You grandmas have been down here all by yourselves for way too long, don't y'all try shit," Joseph eyes us suspiciously and I feel myself blush in embarrasment. "Get out, you fucktard," Taylor says in annoyance. Joseph just laughs before saying, "Behave children, Jesus is watching you."