The Last Cut

Chapter 34

A/N Hello! Bet you didnt expect Tara dying now did you?! Its sad..

xXHarperXx = Alice

Me = Dis

We DO NOT own the bands..or Charlie.... lol

Disarray POV

I laid on the bed, not caring about anything. I was angry at the world, the world had took a bite outta Tara and then spit her out and now she's dead. Did she suffer? Did she know what was going on? Did she do it on purpose? I shook my head and turned over so my back was to the door and I looked at the wall in front of me. I felt lost and scared. Was Alice going to die too? Electra and Tara did, was God punishing me for something I did?

I heard a knock upon my door, I stayed silent.

The door opened, casting a pillar of light into the dark room.

"Dis?" Ron called, I sighed and curled up into a ball.

I heard footsteps coming towards where I laid, and then the bed dipped down from Ron sitting down on the edge.

"How you are doing?" He asked me. I turned and looked at him, showing my face that was splotchy from crying and my eyeliner and mascara that I had put on this morning on the flight here was ruined and had ran halfway down my cheeks. In all, I looked like shit. His face softened once he looked at my face, I laid back down but this time I was facing him. He laid down next to me and looked concerned.

"We are making lunch, you want anything?" He asked me softly. I shook my head and closed my eyes.

"No, I'm not hungry." I whispered and opened my eyes.

"You sure?" He asked again, I nodded and rolled over so I was on my back rather then on my side and I grabbed a pillow and put it over my face. Every once and a while fresh tears ran down my face, but for now my face just had tear stains.

"Okay. We'll come and check on you in a little bit." Ron said, I didn't respond but he knew that I had heard him but just didn't want to talk so he walked out, the pillar of light disappearing with him.

I removed the pillow away from my face and sat up. I heard my phone vibrate on the bed side table and I picked it up and read the caller I.D.

Mom. I sighed shakily and answered the phone.

"Hello?" I said quietly.

"Oh honey. I heard about Tara! How are you and Alice holding up?" She said, her voice a mix of sadness and worry. I closed my eyes tight trying to stop the tears.

"Mom, why does this have to happen?" I cried, bowing my head and letting tears fall.

"I don't know baby, God works in mysterious ways." She said soothingly.

"It's not fair." I said, wiping tears.

"I know it's not. Life isn't fair. Do you want me to fly you back here to Alexandria? I can call the airport and get you tickets." She told me. Alexandria, my home town. God no. 

"No I need to stay here. I don't think I could come home." I laid back on the bed.

"You sure honey?" She asked me softly, I nodded even though I knew that she couldn't see me.

"Yeah I'm sure." I said and wiped the tears off of my face.

"Okay I gotta go. Your father wants to go talk to the Fields, give our respects." She told me.

"Okay. Bye." I said and hung up. I rolled over and say up, and walked to the window, I moved the thick curtains over so I could see outside. After seeing the shining sun, I threw the curtain closed and turned my back to it.