you're a monster
a loveless one
a cold one
but so am i
maybe that's the reason i'm drawn to you
to people like you
people who like to play with other people
they like to sharpen their claws and coo
opening my chest and pulling my heart out.
we pick apart each other's chests and chew each other's hearts out
gulping love down like it's wine
we can't stop.
and eventually this love
it rots us from the inside out.
i'm not sure how
but it's like your words
covered in sugar
but they taste so bitter
something you want to spit out
but you can't,
because it both tastes so repulsive
and so like home at the same time
that you need it,
so you keep going.
the spaces in between
your words and mine
are full of love,
love we have
but we just can't grasp.
we are both beyond love
but dare and try and reach it.
we aspire something we will never have
and keep running towards it
stripping and stumbling
like a newborn baby
because we are just so innocent,
except we're not.
tainted by lust's shallow claws
blood will pour from our wounds
yours and mine mix together
and we say, we will never be lonely again.
we both knows it's a lie.
but both you and i are loveless monsters
searching for meaning in a world full of love we can't touch.
in this world full of love, the seasons, while they change,
winter turns spring turns summer turns autumn and it is winter again
in the years that pass we clutch each other
and we promise we will stay by each other's side,
but in aspiration, we are monsters,
clinging to the humanity we have left
and the hatred for the world
like the kind you have for me.
i don't understand it,
how i could still love you
and how you could hate me so much
i would bet i wouldn't hear my name coming from your lips
like it burns,
a bitter sort of fire,
you'd spit it out,
if you even remembered it at all.
your name does not lie on my tongue
but upon my heart
and your name,
it ignites a kind of fire inside me
a one that threatens to take me whole
have damage done, my flesh burned from thick flames
while i stand helpless,
burning in the fire of love.
your name.
my name.
our love.
i'd swear you wouldn't remember it.
