We're Not Okay.

Halloween bitch

Jade and i popped a molly while getting ready for the party

"i'll be back i'm going to take a piss"

jade says she leaves i'm sitting at my desk looking at myself in the mirror

and then i got a flash back of when i was looking at my body in the mirror i was just wearing a bra and underwear

we had just fucked and he went to the bathroom i got up to change but i stopped when i saw my reflection

Gus was standing by the door i had no idea i was looking at myself, my scars, everything

then i noticed him there and laughed of embarrassment

"you keep walking around like that imma make it round three"

he said then he kissed me his hands traced over my body he starts to kiss my neck then he whispered in my ear

"fuck your scars you're beautiful, they don't define you Ru"

then the flashback stopped because jade walked in the room

my joker costume was dope but i've never been the type to show off my body on Halloween

i had a sliver grill and a silver fake gun as my accessories

when we were done getting ready jade drove to tracy's house

we got to the driveway and i can hear the beat of $uicideboy$ O Pana! playing and i immediately get excited

we walk in and there tons of people hear then jade took me to the dance floor

"Xanax bars up in my drink, before I pour 'em (Crush it up)
We never fuck with you, fuckboy
Don't act like you can (Hit the blunt!)
Take that motherfucking bat upside your skull and (Crush it Up)
So full of them drugs, I might throw up
I knew I shouldn't have (Hit the blunt!)"

then jade found tracy and we said what's up Gus was there but Bella wasn't, she kept talking to him and i poured myself and her a drink

~Jade~

"where's Bella?"

i asked tracy while Ru got drinks

"they got into a fight this morning i don't know if she going to show up"

"omg that's fucking perfect"

"yeah but Gus is having a bad day in general so his vibe is off"

"he'll snap out of it this is a party there alcohol and drugs all of which he takes"

~~~

"Yo Ru hop in this"

tracy says there's one seat left in the smoke circle and it's right across from Gus

i was too faded to care so i sat down and we all smoked up, i was trying to avoid eye contact with him and so far it was going well