We're Not Okay.

Oxygen

i collected myself enough to drive all the way home, i walked in the house and jade comes rushing out of her room towards me

i look her in the eyes and she knew how hurt i was so right away she gave me a hug

"why is your shirt all bloody"

"i just need to sleep okay please just let me go to sleep and we'll talk when i wake up"

she nodded and i walked to my room i took off all my clothes and went to find a Big t shirt in my closet

i saw the Nirvana shirt Gus gave me and i put it on and went to bed

i was practically sleeping almost the whole day every once in awhile Jade would make and bring me food and something to drink

she was worried that i was sleeping so much i didn't even get up to smoke which is what i usually do

later that night at around 10 Jade and I binged shameless because it's our favourite show

she thought that i should at least stay awake for a few hours and not sleep all day. At around 12 she went to bed for work

i finally got out of bed and went to smoke in the living room

it was now 2am and i was up high as a kite listening to music and smoking even more

then i heard a knock on my door at first i was scared because like what the fuck it's 2 am

but then i realized i had a peep hole in my door so i look through it and i see Gus

immediately i opened the door and see Gus standing there with a big smile on his face

i don't say a word instead i just hugged him and he hugged me even tighter, i've never been so happy to see someone in my life

"so you gunna let me in or are we chillin in the hallway"

he said laughing

"yeah come in"

i said as we both walked in and he sat on the couch next to me

"how are you feeling?"

i asked him

"i'm good i didn't really feel any pain so i'm okay"

"why are you here so late?"

"Layla was at the crib all day until like 11 then tracy told me what happened with you two at the hospital, i still remembered what happened before the ambulance came"

"okay and?"

"man i don't know what i'm doing i'm in the town that i hate and i'm with a girl that's controlling as fuck"

"if you hate it here so much then why did you come?"

"because you're still here"

"but that doesn't matter because you have a girlfriend that high key hates me"

he looked at me for a second it was quite "i was all over her" by Salvia Palth was playing softly in the background on my tv