Pieces of My Heart

Millions of emotions

I woke up being nauseous. I dashed into the bathroom and emptied last nights meal. The first thing I was seeing in the morning for the past two days was the toilet. Jimin came to see if I was alright and pulled my hair back so it won't be in the way.

Jimin: This is the second time in a row that this happened. Are you sure it is food poisoning?

Hwayoung: I thought it was as we ate seafood the day before but now I am not so sure. 

Jimin: You should make a doctor's appointment. 

Hwayoung: I'll see if tomorrow happens again and then I'll do one.

Jimin changed to get ready for work while I prepared some breakfast. I only had a cup of coffee as I didn't have any appetite. Jimin and I parted ways to go to work. When I arrived at work, it was the busiest it ever was.

It was just three days before Christmas and students had just started their holidays. Many came to the coffee shop to hang out with friends and some also enjoyed to study here. Moreover, it was early in the morning, when the shop was the busiest. Some took a cup of coffee on the go before they go to work, others ordered coffee for their boss. 

There were so many customers that we couldn't keep up with them. It also started raining outside and the streets were in chaos. People were running with their umbrella, some were running to find shelter so they didn't get wet. Although it was a bit too late for that as they were soaking from head to toe. There was someone who was even running with their briefcase on their head. 

After eleven, the shop was less chaotic and only a few people were coming in. I took this opportunity to have my break. I found an empty table and started eating my lunch. I went on my phone and received a notification from my period tracking app saying how I was one week late. 

I choked on my food. I totally forgot about my period. Could it be that I was pregnant? I checked when my ovulation was supposed to happen and to my horrors it was on the week of my birthday. And that week Jimin and I did have sex. A lot of thoughts were rushing through my mind. Maybe that's the reason why I was feeling nauseous in the morning. 

My mind kept thinking about all the possibilities. What if I was actually pregnant. Me and Jimin were not expecting this.

I decided to buy a pregnancy test on the way home. When I arrived in the shop, I hid my face by wearing the hood of my hoodie, glasses and a cotton mask. Thankfully only a few people were in the store as it was nearly closing time.

When I arrived home, luck was on my side as Jimin was still at work. They still have one award show left that was taking place after Christmas so they were practicing so hard to the point that Jimin was coming home very late at night. Sometimes I even fell asleep while waiting for him.

I didn't want to tell Jimin that I might be pregnant as it could be a false alarm but something at the pit of my stomach was telling me otherwise.

Those three minutes of waiting took so long. I kept looking at my phone every second. The time didn't want to pass by. When the three minutes passed, my hands were shaking so badly. I looked at the pregnancy test and there were two red lines. I was pregnant.

A whirlwind of emotions hit me. From being happy and crying with tears to panicking and thinking how I was not ready for this. How was I going to tell Jimin? I know he was going to be with me through this but I needed to make it special. I know he was going to be over the moon about it.  He was constantly saying how we were going to be the ones having a baby first and how he couldn't wait to have little kids running around.

I ended up getting pregnant before the wedding but that means that our child would be present at our wedding which made it even better. Maybe it was a leap of fate that I didn't end up buying a wedding dress.

 I decided to tell Jimin on Christmas day. I put the pregnancy test in a box and wrapped it up to make it look like it was a gift from me. I already had a gift prepared which was a pair of shoes Jimin had wanted. I was so eager to tell him but had to wait three whole days. I was going to reveal it to him so many times but stopped myself from doing it.

Christmas day finally arrived and for once Jimin was going to spend the whole day with me. When we woke up, we headed downstairs around the Christmas tree to open each others gift.

Hwayoung: This Christmas I wanted to give you two gifts. The first one has a very special meaning for both of us.

Jimin: I wonder what it is!

When Jimin opened the box his eyes were about to pop out of their sockets.

Jimin: YOU'RE PREGNANT?!

Hwayoung: Yes!!

He embraced me in a tight hug and pecked my lips.

Jimin: OH MY GOD! We're going to have a baby. This is the best Christmas gift I could have ever received! How long have you known?!

Hwayoung: About three days ago. That's why I was feeling nauseous and then I realized that I missed my period and so I took the test.  

Jimin: This is truly the best Christmas ever. Hwayoung I can't believe it. You're carrying my child!

Hwayoung: We need to postpone the wedding. We should get married after the baby arrives. 

Jimin: That's the best thing to do. We will get to have our child in our wedding! Hwayoung this made me so happy!

I was so happy that Jimin was delighted with the news. He was on cloud nine. He ended up crying with happiness. He kept talking about the baby all day. I was beyond content that I was going to be a mother and had Jimin as the father. If I am not sure about anything, I am certain about one thing; Jimin was going to be the best father. Every time I saw him with kids, he showed how much he loves children. 

Whether it's a boy or it's a girl, the baby will be loved endlessly and she or he were going to live in such a happy family. I couldn't wait to meet him or her and although I was nervous at the beginning, seeing Jimin being excited makes me fortunate that I would be raising a little family with him.