Surprise?...

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Happy New Year~ it's 7:30pm and I'm still. Hung. Over. Don't. Drink. Children. 🆘

Marks POV

I stared at the door awkwardly unsure of what to do.  I wanted to barge into the bathroom and force BamBam into my arms and hug him and tell him everything would be okay... but I also knew Jaebum was right... the tough love act sucked and it hurt my baby but he needed to hear it somehow.

Flashback

"Look at me you can't let this break you, you can't let this be what defines you do you hear me? You have to be stronger than this, be stronger than them do you understand me?" Jaebum said sternly and BamBam glared at him with tear filled eyes.

"That's easy for you to say! You don't have everyone pulling you around telling you what to be! Do you be yourself? If so do you be Big or Little?! What is Little? You don't fucking get it!" BamBam yelled pushing Jaebum off of him with a huff.

"Yeah I don't BamBam only you know how you feel and who you are, so be you. Stop being who people tell you be." Jaebum yelled back and I flinched, Jackson's hand wrapping around mine tightly.

"I don't know who I am!" BamBam yelled his voice cracking and Jackson's eyes glossed over.

"Figure it out BamBam, figure it the fuck out because you have all the support you could ask for.. there is no reason for this to be the end all be all for you." Jaebum said sternly and I widened my eyes.

"Jaebum.." Jackson whispered and he shook his head, tears streaming down his cheeks shocking Jackson and I.

"He's the only one who can fix his inner demon's, and once they are fixed then this stuff won't matter. Ha-Joo isn't the problem, the problem is that he cares what he says." Jaebum sighed walking out and shutting the door.

Looking down at my hands I sighed and gripped my hair tightly. "Fuck." I whispered trying to keep myself together.

Walking to the bathroom I pressed my face against the door and took a deep breath. Moving back I was about to knock when the door slammed open and I fell onto my back with a thud taking the desk chair down with me.

"Shit.. why are you so aggressive?" I hissed moving and holding my nose which had started to bleed slightly.

"Oh my god I'm so sorry- I was mad and trying to call a thera.. terpist? A feelings doctor but I couldn't spell it so I wanted to ask for help but then the door was locked and I couldn't get it unlocked and I got scared and upset and boom I killed my daddy with the door." BamBam ranted his eyes large and glossy and I smiled slightly with a wince.

"Hey baby boy... I'm okay. Just a small booboo okay? I'll show you how to unlock the door later okay?" I cooed taking his hand and sitting up.

"Let's get cleaned up baby." I grunted and BamBam nodded with worry in his eyes as he followed me to the kitchen.

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"Wait BamBam broke your nose?!" Yugyeom yelled shocked and the group all stopped and turned at the oldest and youngest who were talking.

All of them were meeting up at the field to eat and talk since it was a warm cool day and Yugyeom saw Mark first and asked what happened. Mark tried to keep it chill and quiet so BamBam wouldn't feel bad.. but well...

"I- I didn't break it.." BamBam stuttered looking down and Jackson bit his lip.

Jinyoung gripped Jackson's hand hard knowing how much he cared about the situation after he saw Jackson break down last time.

"What happened?" Youngjae asked his voice soft as he moved and sat on the blanket like normal.

"The other night after Jaebum and Jackson left BamBam was in the bathroom and I got worried about him... it was a tough day with the flyers.." Mark said and everyone nodded.

"I guess I switched to little space in the bathroom while trying to get contact information on a therapist... I thought maybe if I had one to talk about everything with id be less of a burden and all that shit.. but I couldn't spell the word and got upset so I needed Marks help but when I went in there I locked the door.." BamBam sighed.

Mark smiled softly taking his hand. "He didn't know how to get the door unlocked and was trying to unlock it and open it and was getting upset and scared and I was outside the door I unaware to all that... my face was right against the door when he got it and he slammed it open because he was scared he was trapped and it hit my face. It was a dumb accident, he didn't do it." Mark said confidentially, he didn't blame BamBam at all.

"Woah.. does Lil Bam know how the locks work now..?" Jackson asked as everyone was silent and BamBam chuckled softly.

"Mark showed me... and when did you call it Lil Bam?" He smiled and everyone laughed moving on with the lunch.