I really feel less drained now. Parang ang laki ng batong natanggal sa dibdib ko. Yun lang pala ang kailangan ko. Thanks to Matt, the feelings I thought was lost were going back to me. The numbness were somehow touched and now I can feel my own heartbeat. I can feel that I still need to live. That I'm still needed.
Akala ko okay na kong mag-isa. Mas masaya pa rin pala ang may kasama. Mas masaya pa rin palang may nakakausap ka.
"Thank you Matt. Please inform me when you're home already"
"Wala naman ako masyado nagawa eh 😅"
"You did so much Matt. Thank you. :)"
"Oh siya pasok na. Matulog ka na. Text me if you want to ok? Kausap or just someone to listen, I'm just a call away"
"Ok. Again, thank you very much"
"Anything, friend 😉"
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Matthew's PoV
Now I somehow understand, why she acts like that, why she doesn't even want to open up to other people. Her trust is so precious right now. Konting sanggi mo lang o maling hawak mababasag. She's so fragile, so fragile I wanna be there to protect her. I'm her friend after all. Yes, friend.
I always call her "friend" but I knew in myself I wanted more. I-I just wanna be there for her, always. I wanna be there when she needs someone to talk to, when she breaks down, when she's happy. I didn't see myself like this before. Barkada barkada lang ako. Inom inom. Huli ang aral. Pero when she came, when I saw how she really was doing and why she acts like that, I was changed. Sa kagustuhan kong maintindihan ang kalagayan niya, I always came to school to attend classes now. Hindi na din ako umiinom at natutunan kong idistansya sarili ko sa mga walang kwentang tao.
I don't want to think about my own feelings yet because I know it's not yet the right time. She's so broken I wanna fix her, I wanna help in fixing her. I just hope I will not be the one who will break her into something not fixable in the future.
Katrina's PoV
Matthew has done so much for me, so much that I am now getting myself back. I'm getting the happy Katrina back. He's slowly gaining not only my trust but I think... I think I'm falling for him. I am scared. So scared about this that I think I will have to distance myself from him. No, I won't even try to get into these things any deeper. Ayoko. Ayokong masaktan. Ayoko nang magago. Masaya na ko. Masaya na ulit ako. Ayoko na mawala pa yon. This happiness I am in, tama na to. Ok na ko na ganito.
Matthew's PoV
"Alis na ko Matt, bye!"
"Agad-agad? Huy!"
"Byee!"
Why do I feel like she's running away from something? Someone?
Lagi na lang siyang nagmamadaling umalis. Di niya ko masyadong iniimikan, she said she just needs to attend to her business more often now. Pero parang hindi. Parang umiiwas siya... saken? Pero bakit? May nagawa ba ako? Sana naman wala. Wag naman sana siyang mawawala saken. Wag naman please. Aaminin ko pa sa kanya na mahal ko siya. Aaminin ko pa sa kanya lahat ng nararamdaman ko. Hinahanapan ko pa lang ng tamang tyempo, sana naman masabi ko pa sayo, Kat.
Alam ko nahihirapan kang magtiwala, pero sa tagal nating magkakilala di mo pa rin ba ko pinagkakatiwalaan Kat? No. Erase that. I don't think so. Hindi. I know I somehow gained her trust. I know I'm making her happy, nakikita ko yun.
I decided to go to her home, I think I need to tell her everything now. It's now or never.
I saw her outside her house, she's talking to someone. I observed her aura and it's really very much different from what I first saw in her. Good job self. Good job Katrina :) you did it.
She was about to enter the house when I called her
"Kat!"
"Oh Matt? Napadpad ka?"
"Can we talk?"
"About what?"
"I-I have to tell you something"
"Ano yun?"
This is it. HOOO!
"Kat, I-I love you. I know you think this is not the right time. You're not ready but-"
