The Professor's Wife - a Benedict Cumberbatch fanfiction

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Hello lovelies.
Sorry for not updating the stories.

For those who followed my Instagram probably noticed that I've been really.... melancholic lately?
So it turns out that I have mild depression.
I've been seeing a psychologist so don't worry.
But I don't think she's helping me that much....
Sometimes I get really really really sad, but I just couldn't cry and it's really torturing me not being able to release my negative energy.
But then there are times where I just suddenly break down and cry when I'm just casually doing really basic stuff like eating or reading.
At first I didn't realise it was bad until one time I cry in my class during a lecture.....
My professor was there to witness the incident and he brought me to the well being centre on campus.
Honestly, I don't even feel like going to class now.
All I want to do is just stay in bed, I don't care if I only get to stare at the ceiling all day, I just didn't want to get out of it.
But I have to.
And so I stress eat a lot.
But there are also days where I only eat an apple for the entire day.
I feel sad,
It's the only emotion I feel now.
I know it's bad and I probably shouldn't say this but I've also been hooking up with a few guys I know....
They made me feel happy by showering me with their love and attention but
the happiness only lasted for a while.
Eventually I get back to being all sad and melancholic again.
I don't have any suicidal thoughts now though,
so I guess that's good?

I honestly don't know if the therapy is going to work for me but I'll try.

Also I'll never give up on the stories that I wrote.

It's going to be late but it's better than never, right?

I'm really really sorry.
I didn't mean to disappoint you guys.

C.