sander sides Virgil x Roman

please except me

-anxiety pov-

Once roman said that,I hugged his waist hesitantly,he pet my hair and I purred softly,I have a sweet spot for pets"your so adorable" Roman said softly and he stopped to check the time,and I whimpered"fine,we can stay up a little longer,wanna watch a movie" Roman said and we watched Netflix until i fell asleep on his chest.

After my nap...

I woke up happy this time,I was refreshed,i took two pills and got water to wash them down"patton,hi hi" I said happily I felt so happy for the first time in a long time,I felt confident,like I could stand up for myself,I never felt like this in a long time,I wanted to feel like this forever,bit of course it all had to end when I couldn't go with them and I had to stay home,just to get beaten again.

Two hours later.....

I was lying on my bed crying,I couldn't take anymore of this pain,the door nob started jiggling and I got scared,I began shaking and sobbing more"baby please open the door,its me"i heard a soft voice say,I shakily got out of bed and stumbled to the door,I unlocked it,I lost my balance,but before I fell,roman caught me"hey,you need to lie down"roman said,softly,as he laid me down on the bed"what happened to you"roamn said this as if he was stressed",I kept quiet,I didn't want to be a burden on anyone,and I didnt want logan to be in trouble"baby,you need to tell me what happened,I cant help you if I dont know,you were fine this morning"roman said as he caressed my hair"i-i,he" I began crying,bit more softly,he sighed"its fine if you dont want to tell me,you dont have to,but I'm worried about you,whenever I come home,you look either beaten to death or bleeding,I don't wanna see you like this"roman said as he began getting medical supplies to treat my wounds and bruises,I was hesitant but on the other hand,I wanted him to get what he deserved,logan Is just a bully,i wanted him to get what he deserved..

"I-it was logan"i said his name quietly"sorry i couldn't hear you" roman said "logan..." i whispered"sorry i still cant hear you,a little louder please"roman said in the kindest way he could"logan!"i yelled,i immediately covered my mouth hoping logan didnt hear me,roman was furious,once he finished with my wounds he lead me downstairs carefully,no matter how angry he was he didnt want to hurt me,and I trusted him,once we were downstairs,he let go of my hand and slapped logan,the others were shocked"what did you do that for?!?" Logan said with confusion"what were you doing to anxiety when we all were away!" Roman yelled,I was scared,roman was angry,and this ment pain...

Patton ran over to me and covered my ears,trying to calm me down in the process,at this point roman and logan and Thomas,were arguing and thomas tried to break it up,I couldn't take it anymore,I didnt want everyone fighting,I got out of patrons grip and separated them to,accdently using my magic hurting both of them,I gasped"i-im sorry,i-i d-didnt mean to i-"i was breathing harder than normal,i needed to get get of there,there gonna hate me now,I hurt them,all of them,i ran out of the house,not caring if I didnt have shoes on,and I was just in a jacket and shorts and white shirt,I ran to sketchy nearby lake,I sat by the warm water,it was beginning to rain,and it was dark,I hated the dark,I began crying"this is why i cant use my powers,because I have no control over them! I hurt the ones I love most,and thats on me! They probably hate me..." I whispered to myself,burying my head in my knees,sobbing heard footsteps my direction,and someone sitting beside me"hey,you alright..."it sounded as if it was a girl,she had on a black hoodie with black ripped Jean's and converse on,I shook my head no"what happened,why are you crying"i accidentally used my powers on the ones I love most and I hurt them"i said crying more,she took her hood of,she had cat ears and tail,and long black hair with a blue streak going down it(drawing is at the top)

"Who are you"i asked,wiping my tears"my name is Janelle,I'm a ghoul,just like you" she said putting a hand on my shoulder,I flinched away"hey,its alright,I'm not going to hurt you" Janelle said softly,as I relaxed slowly into her touch"i was just like you once,I didnt know how to control my powers,but I can help you,come here tomorrow,at 12:30,I will show you where you can learn to control your powers,but but before you do that,I gotta get you home" Janelle said helping me up,and walking me back home,where I saw Roman heading this way,he hugged me tightly,i was shocked at first,but slowly melted into it,I looked back only to see janelle face away,waving,I waved back,as Roman lead me back to the house,I was hesitant to go back inside"whats wrong"roman asked"dont you hate me"i whispered"no,why would I hate you"roman said softly "b-because,I hurt you,all of you"i said clutching my jacket sleeve,I began to cry softly"hey,that wasn't your fault,I shouldn't have brought you down there"roman said softly,while placing his hands on my shoulders,I shook my head"i hurt you,I hurt all of you,I deserve to die!,I dont belong here! Life is hell,I just wanna DIE!!" He was thrown again,he cut his arm on the concrete,my eyes were wide"i-im so sorry" I began to run again but roman caught me and hugged me"dont you ever say that ever again,do you hear me!" roman yelled shakily"please" roman said,his voice was shaky and he was crying"now dont run again,please" roman said,I nodded"im sorry"i whispered,my voice muffled by his warm chest"you dont need to apologize"roman said softly rubbing my back,he tried to separate,I gave him puppy eyes"baby,we can cuddle later,but,you dont have shoes on and its getting cold,your shivering "he said,as I just realized that I was shivering,he quickly got me inside,and immediately got to my room,and went under the heated blanket"warm"i mumbled,my plushie muffling my words"Achoo" I sneezed roamn gave me a tissues,he put the box beside me,he felt my forehead as I felt cold"cold~"I moaned out(NOT the other way you dirty minded people,jk jk😋)

"I'm gonna go get you a cloth" roman said but I grabbed his hand"don' weave me"i said in a babyish tone"im not leaving I'm just gonna go get you a cloth"roamn said softly,moving my hair out of my face.

A few minutes later....

Roman then put the cloth in hot water and placed it on my forehead"warm~" I whispered,roman then sat on the edge of the bed"hey,baby,what you said back there,was it true"roman said worried,I nodded"I didnt want that to slip out but I was so out of it I didnt know what I was saying,I was tired,hungry,starving myself,and on top of that the self hate and cutting" roman put his hand over his mouth,tears threatening to spill out"don' cry"i said crawling the best I could to his lap"your right,your sick and this is a bad,you shouldn't be worried about me,get your lil panda,you need rest"roman said putting me back on my pillow,giving me my panda,called(you guys can name the panda,I will have a vote in the comments)I began breathing fast and had tears in my eyes,is he gonna leave me I wanna sleep with him,I made grabby hands towards him"no,dont panic,I'm not going anywhere,I'm just going to change so I can sleep with you" roman said,and he stripped into his boxers and climed into bed with me"i cuddled up to him,lying my head on his bare chest,he sung me a lullaby,as we went to bed.