Spinel Headcannons

Spinel's nervous in public

No matter where they are, whether it be Beach City or Little Homeworld, Spinel's anxiety gets cranked up terribly.

Spinel usually just holds Steven's, Connie's hand, or any other crystal gem's hand she's comfortable around for a sense of security. She's scared that some people or gems who see her are possibly mad at her for what she did when she first came to earth, sometimes taking slight glances as angry glares in her head. She sometimes would get lost in either town if she was visiting earth, having a panic attack soon afterwards, though she has been able to calm down after a little, though it usually didn't go without a little self harm.

Once when Steven and Amethyst took her to the Big Donut, Spinel got sick from a panic attack, vomiting up whatever she ate from the shop outside as Steven and Amethyst tried to comfort her. She later laid on the couch for the rest of the day, not exactly feeling well from throwing up all her snack, so she understandably had an upset stomach from all of her anxiety from earlier, also she felt ashamed of having an episode like that, but Steven and Amethyst weren't mad at all, keeping her comfortable until she finally was able to get some sleep later that day.

Spinel's not too sure why she feels so anxious about being seen, maybe it's the way she looked? She was a little embarrassed about her appearance, so maybe that didn't help. And maybe it was because of her first impression? She still felt ashamed and hated herself for ever thinking that was okay to do. Or maybe she was really just scared of being seen because of both of these.

Steven has been trying to help her with her social anxiety, it has gotten better, since she hasn't had as many panic attacks as she did before. So she's been having some progress.