Dear: Who Now?!

Chapter 18

So far mom and I have been at Blade and Kayla's for a week and a half. It's been the BEST time of my life - all thanks to Khayla that is. Everyday we get high, makeout, go places, and do other fun extracurriculars at night. I've gotten so use to falling asleep next to her or in her arms and ever morning she's back on the floor; I'm not sure how she does it without me noticing or waking me up but somehow she does. 

This morning is different though. When I wake up, she's still laying next to me as if she's waiting for me to wake up. Yawning, I roll over and face her. "Good morning." I say sleepily and smile at her. She smiles slightly at me but seems distracted. "Hey." Is all I get and she spaces back out. I get up and head to the bathroom to relieve myself, brush my teeth so I don't smell like morning breath and rinse my face before jumping back into bed with her. "What time is it?" I ask. Before she can answer I lean over and kiss her on the lips, making her smile and moan. Sensing her mood has changed for the better, I pull away and look at her while propping myself up on my elbow. "Did you say something?" She asks me dreamily. I nod and laugh. "Yes, I asked for the time." I chuckle quietly. She pulls out her phone and shows me - 9:30 am. I nod my head and she puts her phone down. "Have you eaten yet?" I ask looking at her. She shakes her head and I see her get sad again. Sighing I get closer to her and grab her hand. "What's wrong?" I ask while searching her eyes for some kind of hint. She doesn't look at me but looks down, bites her lip, and shakes her head quickly, not uttering a word. That's when I notice the tears. I pull my hand from her grip and wipe the fast falling tears. "Khayla? Babe? What's wrong?" I ask starting to get scared. She lets out a heart wrenching sob and I squeeze her into a hug. She tries to say something but it doesn't make any sense. I make soothing little shushing noises and rub her back as she cries. Finally she sits up and looks at me wither her red face. "You're leaving today!" 

Shocked I look at her. Panic starts coursing through me and now my tears start. "But - I don't waaaannna!" I wail. She pulls me into a hug and we sit there, both sobbing for what feels like forever. Finally we stop and pull away. With a heavy heart I slowly get up and retrieve my suitcase. "Guess I better start packing and make sure I have everything." I feel so empty and robotic as I move around and put my things away. I can't bear to look at Khayla or I just know I'll cry again. "I'm gonna go hop in the shower." I tell her. She nods in response and I leave for the shower. 

Locking the door behind me, I grab Khayla's body wash, shampoo and other shower necessities that she showed to me the first time I needed to take a shower here. I line them up on the tub and start the water. I wait a bit and when it's finally warm I get in. I stand under the hot water and just let it hit me while I'm so far away in thought. Why would mom do this? Why did I have to find Khayla? Why do we have to leave NOW?! Will mom let me stay here? Probably not.. I let out a sigh and a few more tears escape my eyes. Finally I realize I'm just standing here wasting water. So I start with my shampoo and conditioner, then body wash and shaving, then I rinse and step out bundled in a towel. I notice my skin's all red but that doesn't bother me -it doesn't matter - nothing does! 

After a while I'm dressed and out of the bathroom, eating breakfast with everyone where mom casually tells me the news I already know. I try not to get upset but I just feel so broken! I notice I'm crying again and quickly wipe my eyes before anyone notices. After we finish, mom tells me to finish packing and put the suitcase in the car. I nod silently and head back to Khayla's room where my bag is already packed. I decide to lay with Khay and try to ignore what's gonna happen. Hand in hand we just chat. "I hope you don't mind but I added my number in your phone while you were in the shower and I sent myself a text that way I have yours." Khayla tells me. I nod my head slightly and smile in response. "Are you gonna forget me?" I ask hesitantly. She sits right up and looks at me dead in the eyes. "Of course not! You're my ride or die! I love you O! How could I ever forget you?! You're my BEST friend! And only one at that. Nobody likes me around here because they either don't like my parents or think I'm weird. But you were different, you accepted me for who I am and better yet, you like me too - Or so I hope." She ends and looks at me with  a slight smile but I can see the question in her eyes. I lean over and kiss her again. "Of course I like you! I wouldn't of done everything I have otherwise silly! Plus, you and I are kinda the same person. I mean I don't have friends because of how I look. It's bullshit but I'm use to it. And now here you are in my life. I love you!" I kiss her again and am rudely interrupted by my mom yelling down the hallway. "Come on Ophelia, we have to gooo!" I pull away, roll my eyes and let out a huff before sliding off the bed. Grabbing my suitcase, I tote it behind me. When I reach the living room, Blade takes it and walks out the door with it where I assume he puts it in our car for me. I go to walk out and am suddenly grabbed my Khayla and squeezed in the tightest hug I have EVER felt. "Text me!" Is all she says into my ear and quickly kisses my cheek. I nod and walk out the door without looking behind me. Glancing around my eyes spot our little red volkswagen. I get in the passenger's side and look to my left where mom nad Blade are still talking before she goes to get in the car. As she's kinda bent down, he kisses her quickly and walks away. "It was good to see you again Jade, text me!" He shouts at her. "Bye Ophelia!" He says and waves to me. I wave in response and mom does too. Starting the car, she lets out a little honk and we see them all standing there waving. We wave back like crazy and sooner rather than later, we're gone. I pull out my phone and look at the text Khayla sent herself. I laugh quietly when I see what she put her contact name as - THE LOVE OF YOUR LIFE! With a heart next to it. I go into the contacts and make a nickname to use for it "LOMFL!" Then I read the texts. 

Me: Hey baby, It's me, the darkest looking cloud but the brightest sunshine :) 

LOMFL: Oh Heyyyy baby! I've missed you SO much! BTW! You take the LONGEST showers lol

Me: Sorry, gotta be all clean for my baby - OMG! I smell like you now! 

LOML: Yay!! Uh-oh! You're coming! Gotta go! I LOVE YOU!!!!  <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 :* :* :* 

I smile at her dorkiness and put my phone down. I look to mom who's focused on the road and biting her lip in  a nervous habit I've noticed she has. I grab my phone, plus it into the aux and let one of her many favorite songs fill the car. When she realizes what song it is, she looks over to me and smiles. "Thank you." She mouths to me. I nod and watch out the window, wondering where on earth we're headed now.