Dear: Who Now?!

Chapter 25

A whole two days have past since the incident with my mother. Grandpa ended up taking me to his "bachelor pad" full of three of his guy friends. Once they heard what happened they all came after me and told me how fucked up I am. Not only that but my phone went crazy with texts and calls from Blade, Khayla and Kayla, telling me how I fucked up and shouldn't of done what I did. Now Khayla HATES me and isn't talking to me and Blade told me in a call that if he was here, he'd beat my ass for what I did, how I hurt my mom which is his best friend and other "wonderful" things. 

I keep beating myself up over the whole thing. I know it was stupid to do and everyone hates me now. I've probably ruined relationships with everyone involved and it's all probably irreversible. At this, I flop onto the guest bed I've been staying on and sob. I didn't know any of this would happen! What have I DONE?! 

When I finally stop crying, I get up and go look for my grandpa. I come into the living room to see my newest and worst nightmare -Eric, sitting in an armchair, watching tv. He sees me immediately. "Do you know where my grandpa is?" I ask him. He screws his face up and then mocks me. "Why? So you can kiss him too?" He laughs angrily. "Wow! As much as I HATE your mother, I didn't know it was possible for someone to be even worse and MORE hateable! But here you are!" He tells me and laughs. I hold in my tears and go running out the front door, running right into the man I was looking for. 

"Ooof!" We both let out as we collide. I look up and see a cigarette in his mouth. He quickly takes it out and throws it behind him. "What's wrong?" He asks me concerned.  I shake my head for a second before answering. "Can we go see mom?" He starts to tell me no but I cut him off. "I need to apologize and explain." I tell him desperately. At that, his eyes widen and he smiles. "Well why didn't you say that to begin with? - Let's go!" He walks quickly to his truck and we hop in. As we're going down the road he looks at me for a second. "Do you wanna get your mom an apology gift to maybe sweeten the deal?" I think about it for a second before shaking my head no. He shrugs his shoulders and goes back to driving. 

We seem to get there in the blink of an eye. Everything is still the same as it was two days ago when I first came here. We hop out of the car and go to the second floor where grandpa tells me to knock. Fear holds me and I freeze, unable to do so. He tries to nudge me but it gets nowhere, so he takes the initiative and does what I can't. 

Three knocks later, the door opens, revealing my very weary looking mother. When she sees me, her tired eyes harden and she walks away from the door, leaving it open behind her. Grandpa and I just kind of stand there before he pushes me forward. Sighing, I step in and walk into the living room where I see my mom sprawled on the bed watching tv with food wrappers around her. She looks up when she hears her dad stomp into the room. She ignores me and smiles at him. "Ya'know we left the house fully stocked when we left?" She smiles slightly. "Little stale but still good." She says laughing quietly. Grandpa's eyes almost pop out of his head as he runs over to mom. "JADE NICOLE! THIS COULD KILL YOU AND GET YOU SUPER SICK! WHAT DID YOU EAT?!"  He asks quickly as he investigates all the wrappers. He lets out a sigh and comes back to his senses. "If you get sick - I told you so. But that's not why we're here." He looks at my mom then me. "Ophelia has something she wants to say to you." With that, he gestures to me that the floor is mine and I should speak. Mom starts to protest but he hushes her and walks through the curtain. She lets out an annoyed sigh and looks at me bored. 

I let out a sigh and look at the ground, unsure how to start. When I look up at her, she has her eyebrows raised as if she's bored and annoyed and wondering if I'm ever going to speak. So I do. 

"Uhm. I'm sorry for what I did. I didn't mean to." I look at her and see  her roll her eyes and turn towards the tv. Quickly I backtrack. "I-I- I was mad that you had me sitting next to people I didn't know and expected us to get along like we were old friends. I'm just tired of this whole trip. I thought it was for me and I feel like it turned into a trip all for you." I pause for a slight second before continuing with my gaze on the ground. "I feel like you forgot me on this trip and it hurts. Just as I was having fun with Khayla, you ripped me away and I was hurt." I pause again as I think of what else I want to say. "I know it was a pretty shitty thing for me to do and I don't know what I was thinking - I guess I wasn't thinking." I barely look up at her. "If you want to hate me that's fine, I guess I deserve it; but I wanted to come and apologize. I want to apologize to Joey and Lou too - but not without you there - they kinda hate me and rightfully so I guess." I end and continue looking at the floor. It's silent as I wait for my mom to say something. I'm shocked when I'm pulled into a hug. "Yeah that was pretty fucked up of you and for a pretty stupid reason too. " She says. I feel tears prick my eyes. "But I have to head over there too and I'm glad you're here - I was gonna have you come either way." She pulls away from me and to the sheet in the doorway. "Oh! We have a hair appointment before we head there though!" And with that she leaves the room. A second later I hear a shower start. Grandpa comes in smiling. "Come on, there's another shower downstairs you can use. So, with no other option, I follow him downstairs and into a very small bathroom with a pink tub where I too, shower.