An Unfinished Apology

I Miss You.

I miss the days where you used to say

"I'm happy to have you here"

"Happy Birthday dear"

I miss the times you used to ruffle my hair

"It's alright you didn't do anything wrong"

"You're getting so strong"

I miss when you used to hug me and say

"I'm here now"

God I miss those days.

I still hear your words in my head

"What are you, stupid?"

Maybe I am.

"Why the hell are you crying"

You broke me.

"I wish you were more like ___"

Maybe I should just leave then.

"Why do you never listen"

Because you don't ever listen to me.

My scars are a plea for help

But you were busy. You didn't see how I felt.

I don't talk back because I have nothing to say

"Don't say anything stupid"

Ok.

"I love you."