Demi Lovato Imagines Book Three (Female Reader)

my angel (requested)

I cried while writing this. I don't think I'll ever be able to read this one back.
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Demi took a seat on the grass and took a couple deep breaths. "Hey baby girl. I'm back. Promised you I would be. This week was so tiring and boring, although I think everything has been much duller since..." She took a deep breath and swallowed thickly. She still couldn't say the words.

"I got some new music done. I wrote a song for ya. I think you'd really love it. My mom told me she came by a couple days ago and gave you some flowers; she made sure to call me to check and make sure she had gotten your favorites." She chuckled through her tears. She tried to ignore the tears in her eyes that were causing her vision to blur a little.

"I made sure I got you some more of them today." She looked at them in her hands and smiled. "You're still the only one i'm buying flowers for. I know I should move on but it just doesn't feel right. Nothing feels right without you." The last part came out as a whimper. She stayed silent for a moment because she didn't trust her voice. She knew if she spoke, she'd break.

"I still haven't done any laundry. I can't bring myself to wash your clothes, or the clothes of mine that you wore before... then. The bed is so much colder these days. I still can't sleep on your side." She sniffled as the tears started to fall. She was breaking. She knew it, and she couldn't stop it. "I miss you so much. I know the point of these visits aren't for me to come here and cry, but I can't help it. Not today."

She took a shaky breath and cleared her throat. "The fans keep posting pictures of us and of you. They keep saying that they miss you and love you. You were so good to them. I loved that about you." She bit her lip and sobbed. "I love you so much. I don't think i'll ever be able to love anyone else the way I got to love you." She closed her eyes, feeling the tears slide down her cheeks as she tried not to choke on her sobs.

"I miss you and I promise i'll never stop loving you. You're my angel. I'll be back to see you tomorrow." She promised as she laid the flowers on the ground, on top of the picture of the two of you that was taken the day before your accident; the accident that took you away from her. It was unfair and every minute of everyday was brutal, without you by her side.

She didn't know if she'd ever heal from losing you, especially in such an awful and unfair way. She just hoped that all her favorite things that she has left of you, like your scent on her clothes and the stain of your lipstick on her favorite coffee cup, wouldn't ever fade away.