sams eyes opened and colby shot out of his seat.
"sam!"
sam wasn't sure where he was and why but he knew he didn't feel well.
colby got on the bed with sam towering over him, hugging his body.
sam weakly wrapped his arms around colby.
even though he was half asleep and could barely keep his eyes open, he knew something bad had happened.
"sam what do you remember?" colby asked.
"nothing." sam struggled to say.
"that's okay." colby smiled
"sam you don't need to say anything, just nod or shake your head but i have a really important question."
"but first i have to apologize, i fucked up and none of this would have happened if i didn't have feelings for emily. i was blinded by her when you were right in front of me."
"i've been in love with you for years and i should of known that my feelings couldn't just switch like that sam. i still love you more than just my best friend and i always will."
"so anyway my question was, will you be my boyfriend. like officially? you're all i've ever needed sam."
colby didn't get a response out of sam.
sam was struggling to say words because he didn't just want to nod in a moment like this.
"yes colby. you're- you're a-ll i've ever wan-wanted. i'll love you until the day i die."
even though sam struggled with his words, the last sentence was so clear and easy for sam to say.
colby smiled before placing his lips on sams cold ones.
and then sam was knocked out again.
colby had to ask the question when he could because just a few moments before, he was told something that broke his heart into pieces.
a few moments ago
"colby brock?" a doctor asked coming in the room.
"yes. that's me." colby said standing up.
"you might want to sit down for this." the doctor said.
colbys heart raced as he sat back down in his seat.
"colby this is never easy to tell the patients family but, we seriously doubt that sams going to make it."
"so i'll never get to hear his voice again?" colbys voice cracked.
he didn't know how to feel.
"he might wake up here and there but i believe he won't last forty eight hours."
present time
as seconds ticked by, colby had less and less time with sam.
i have to take my life so i can be with sam
kill myself
suicide
the answer
sam
please
sam
stop
DO IT
these thoughts ran rapidly through colbys mind.
"i'm sorry sam." colby got up and walked to his boyfriend body.
sams arm had previous cuts running up and down his arm.
colby moved his hand across it feeling the bumpiness the cuts left.
a single tear drop fell onto sams arm.
"this is my fault." he sobbed.
"if i wouldn't have done that to you sam you'd be at home. and you'd live years and years"
"i'm gonna miss you."
published 11/21/19
