My Life with O2L

Chapter 10

"What's my favorite color?" I ask Trevor. So far the score is 4-7. Guess who's winning? I'll give you a hint: she was just adopted by Jc Caylen. If you guessed me, way to go! If you didn't, well then you suck balls for lack of faith.
"Um," Trevor hesitates. He has a weird expression on his face.
"Oh come on!" I yell, laughing. "How could you not know?"
He takes a deep breath. "Black and blue?"
"That's your final answer?"
"Yeah."
I laugh and shake my head. "You were SO close! It's gray and blue!"
"Omg! I so knew that too!"
I roll my eyes and whack him playfully. "Whatever! You did not!"
Trevor looks down. "I'm so ashamed of myself!"
"Oh please!" I say, still laughing slightly. "We both know you're not!"
"Yeah, you're right. I'm really not."
We laugh. That was the last question.
"Well, you guys. As much as I hate to admit it, Alex here, is the winner."
I grin and fake bow. "Thank you! Thank you! You're too kind!"
"Don't rub it in!" Trevor scolds, winking. He does his little outro then asks what I want to do.
I don't even hesitate. "Let's play Just Dance!"
"Girl," Trevor says snapping his fingers. "What's the point? You know I'm bout to beat you!"
"Is that a challenge?"
"You know it!"
We race downstairs. Trevor sets up the game and I pick the first song. Starships by Nikki Manaj. Both of us grab a controller for the wii.
"Prepare to be crushed!" I say to Trevor, grinning evilly.
"Never!" He says.
The song starts and we follow the moves on the screen. At first, I was in the lead. But about halfway through the song, Trevor caught up and passed me.
"No!" I yell in defeat, once the song is over.
Trevor laughs. "Who should've been prepared to be crushed now?"
"Shut up!" I say laughing. "That was just a warmup!"
"Okay. If that was a warmup round how about best two out of three next? Winner has bragging rights."
"Deal." We shook on it.
Fifteen minutes and two songs later, Trevor yells, "And the winner is: Trevor Moran! The crowd goes wild! Ahhh!"
I plop on the couch, completely baffled. "Huh?"
"Well, ya see," Trevor says, 'braking it down' for me. "We agreed best two out of three. I won the past two songs, so there's no cha-". I hit him, cutting him off.
"Ow! Dang girl! But as I was saying-"
I glare at him. "If you want to live, I suggest you don't try finishing that sentence."
Trevor gives me a blank stare, then suddenly burst out, "There was no chance of you winning!" Then he took off running. I chased him outside. I caught up to him, and tackled him into the pool. We hit the water hard. I came up coughing and laughing.
Trevor came up moments after I did. I saw a mix of anger and amusement in his eyes. "Run Caylen."
No need to tell me twice. I pulled myself out of the pool. Dripping wet, I ran into the house. Before Trevor could even get out of the pool, I had the screen door locked. I made a face at him. All Trevor did was smirk. Then he took off.
He was heading to the front door. I knew I didn't have time to reach the door before he did, so I ran upstairs to Jc's room.
"Open up!" I yelled banging on the door. "It's an emergency!"
Jc opens the door, rubbing his eyes. A look of confusion came over his face. "Wha-"
"Shut up and hide me you big idiot!" I push my way into his room. "And shut the door!"
He shuts the door, and just in time too. I hear Trevor running upstairs. Then there's banging on Jc's door.
"Don't tell him I'm here!" I whisper. Then I shove myself into his closet and shut the door. I hear Jc open his door.
"Where is she?" Trevor demands.
"Who? Alex?" Jc asks. Trevor must nod or something. "She's not in here dude."
"Okay," Trevor says. I hear the door shut and I breathe a sigh of relief. That was close.
"Alex, you can come out now. He's gone." Jc says. I open the closet door, but before I can step out, a pair of arms pull me out. Then, I'm thrown to the floor. That's when I see my attacker: Trevor. He starts tickling me.
"Trevor!" I shriek. "Stop!" Pathetically, I try to fight back. Naturally, it didn't work. I'm stuck in a fit of laughter. Soon, so is Trevor and Jc. Trevor stops tickling me.
I look at Jc. "I can't believe you would betray me like that!"
Jc looks at me and tries to hold back a grin. "Sorry?"
I must seek revenge! Wait. I'm still wet. [not that way all you dirty minds] I get up and open my arms. "Jc! I wanna hug!" Before he can do anything, I tackle him in a hug.
"Ahhh!" Jc shouts. "Get off me! You're soaking wet!" I get up, laughing. Trevor is rolling around in the floor, practically dying of laughter. Just then, Ricky peeks his head in.
"I'm not even gonna ask." He says, shaking his head. His causes another round of laughter.
When Trevor finally calms down, we decide to go change into clean clothes and go watch a movie downstairs. After much arguing, we decide on Mean Girls. Surprisingly, not my pick.
During the movie, I fall asleep. At some point during the night I hear voices.
"Should we wake her up?" Trevor.
"No. She didn't sleep after the dream last night." Sam.
"How do you know?" Jc asks.
"Um," Sam says.
"Nevermind," Jc says. "All I have to say is don't be messing around with her."
Trevor clears his throat. "Who's carrying her upstairs? I can't."
"I will," Jc says. I feel his arms lift me, and I curl into his chest. Trevor and Sam give me quick pecks on the forehead and whisper goodnight.
As we climb the stairs, (or as Jc climbs the stairs), I hear, "Aww!" Ricky and Kian. I hear a camera flash and I curl up more.
"Shhh." Jc whispers. "She's asleep. She needs rest after last night."
The guys kiss my forehead and let Jc carry me on. When we get to my room, he takes off my shoes and throws them on the floor. Then he goes to take off my bracelets and the glove I wore over my cuts.
I hear a gasp, and I know he's seen them. He calls for the guys. His voice cracks. I try to stay awake, but sleep enveloped me.
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My eyes flutter open and I yawn. Light is pouring into my room. I glance at the time. Ten o'clock. Slipping out of bed, I go into the bathroom and look at myself in the mirror. My hair is a mess and the bandage on my cuts isn't there. Oh well. It probably fell off in my sleep.
I shrug it off, and hop in the shower. It isn't until I get out and see that the bandage isn't anywhere to be found, do I remember last night. Jc saw them. He called the guys in. Oh, god.
I put on a pair of ripped jeans and plain red V-neck shirt. Then I go downstairs to face the guys.
Trying to put it off, I go into the kitchen and fix a cup of coffee. Just what I need. Ricky walks in, red and puffy eyed. He gives me a quick glance and says, "Family meeting in the living room."
I nod and follow him out. I sit on the floor and all the guys are seated on the couch. All of them are puffy- eyed from crying. Jc is the worst. What have I done? (That was rhetorical, I know what I did.)
"Sooo...." I start awkwardly. "What's up?"
"Why?" Jc says, suddenly. There's anger in his voice. "Why, Alex? And don't say you don't know what we're talking about cause I know you do! Why would you do something like that to yourself? I-" his voice breaks and he starts crying. He puts his head in his hands.
That does it. I can't even hold my coffee anymore, I'm shaking so bad. I set it on the table. I open my mouth to speak, but for some reason, no words come out. It's just silence. I close my mouth, purse my lips and just shake my head. For what see like forever, I sit and stare at Jc as he cries and the guys comfort him. Then I break.
The tears come slowly, then all at once. "I'm sorry!" I whisper. "I'm so sorry!"
That really has an effect. All the guys are silently crying. Sam and Ricky get up and sit next to me. Sam opens his arms and I fall into them crying. Ricky puts his hand on my back.
The next few minutes is just everybody crying and hugging and comforting me and Jc. Eventually, Jc sits in front of me and steals me from Sam. I sit awkwardly in his lap. Both of us are still crying.
"It's okay," Jc whispers. "Just promise you won't EVER cut or touch a blade again." I nod and lean into him. He presses his lips to my forehead. We stay in that position for a while, I until I pull back and say, "I have to go to the bathroom."
Jc lets me go and the guys clear a path for me. I head straight to the hall bathroom. Honestly, I didn't have to use the bathroom; I just needed an excuse to get up and away from the sob fest. But I take this opportunity to blow my nose and splash my face with water.
I sit on the lid of the toilet seat and breathe. Just breathe. In and out like any other person. I'm not sure why, but breathing just seems so.... horrible right now. But I know the guys will worry if I take too long.
I walk back into the living room. Everybody's back on the couch. I stand in the doorway awkwardly. But Kian notices and gestures for me to sit. I plop down inbetween him and Jc.
I break the silence and say, "I really am sorry guys."
"You never told us why." Jc says.
I take a deep breath and run a hand through my hair. "Well, I told you guys how my stepdad used to abuse me." They nod. "He used to tell me I was a worthless piece of shit. I was the reason my mom didn't have that great of a life. She got pregnant with me and that ruined every chance she had at a future. Then, after he killed her, I felt like it was my fault. You know? I just felt so guilty. And the kids at the orphanage were always bullying me. Then, there was juvi...." My voice trails off and the guys stare at me with wide eyes. Oh, crap. I didn't mean to say that.
"Juvi?" Trevor squeaks. "You were in juvi?"
I nod. "One of the kids at the orphanage would beat me up on a regular basis. But one day, something in me snapped. I fought back and beat him into a coma. They called me a phyco even though he was the one who was constantly beating me up. Then some of the kids in juvi tried stuff. Long story short, lots of fights.
But they finally let me out. Sent me back to the orphanage. Most of the kids had already left, but the rumors still spread. They told me that one day I'd meet my version of Derek and he'd beat me to death. Told me I should off myself and save the poor guy some trouble.
So, really all of that was a cause of me cutting. The day you guys adopted me I had been cutting. One of the older kids in the orphanage had posted something on my Facebook. Then I had been some hate comments about me. I cut again. It's just always been my go to. The blade had always been there."
The guys just stare at me. "Somebody say something." I say.
"Sorry," Ricky says. "We just didn't realize how much you've been through."
I nod. "I promise I won't cut again. But can we change the subject? It's getting really depressing and I need to take my mind off of it."
The guys nod. "Are you excited about the party tonight?" Trevor asks, excitedly bouncing in place.
"Of course!" I say. "I can't wait!"
"Hey!" Kian says. "We still have to make our video!"
"What're we gonna do?" I ask.
"I was thinking some type of quiz where we can smash pies and cakes in each other's faces!"
"Well duh! We could do trivia and see who's smarter!"
"Cool. All we need are cakes and pies."
Jc speaks up. "And we need to get stuff for the party tonight!"
"So we're going shopping?" Ricky asks.
"Yeah!" Kian says.
"I have homework to do." Trevor says. "Especially if I'm going to be partying all night."
"I'm staying too." I say. "I don't wanna go to the store."
"And I need a shower." Sam says, smelling himself and fake gagging. We laugh.
"Ewww!" I yell, realizing something.
"What?" The guys ask.
I look at Sam. "You hugged me smelling like that! Eww!"
Everybody laughs. "So it's me, Jc, and Ricky going to the store?" Kian asks.
"Yep! Pretty much!" I say.
The guys get up and get ready to head out the door. Me, Sam, and Trevor tell them bye and they leave. Then, Sam and Trevor ditch me to go shower. I take this opportunity to drink coffee and watch Impractical Jokers on tv.
About two hours later, the guys get back from shopping.
"We're back!" Jc announces.
"Yeah!" Kian yells. "So get your lazy asses up and help us carry all the bags in!"
I laugh and get up. "I'm the only one down here guys. Sam and Trevor are upstairs."
I help them carry all the bags into the kitchen.
"You ready for the video?" Kian asks. I nod. "Okay, I got twenty assorted pies and cakes. That means ten questions each. Any leftover will be party food."
I nod. "Where are we filming?"
"Outside somewhere."
"Cool."
Thirty minutes later, we were set up outside.
"Hey guys, what's up? This week on o2l it's Alex week. So, naturally, I'm here with Alex. Say hi Alex." Kian turns to me.
I wave at the camera. "Hi Alex." I say, like a complete goofball.
"Ugh," Kian says, rolling his eyes. "You're so immature."
"Like you're any better."
From inside the house we hear the Rickster yell, "Ooh, girl. The sass is real!"
We laugh. "You wanna tell them what we're doing today?" Kian asks me.
"Sure! Today we are doing a trivia with a twist. We are going to ask each other random questions. If you get it wrong, the person who asked the question, smashed a cake or pie in your face. Ready?" I ask Kian.
"Who's asking the question first?"
"Me. Ready?" Kian nods. "First question: What branch of the military is both land and water?"
"The navy? I don't know. I know there's Army, Air Force, Marines, Navy, and Coast Gaurd. Would it be Coast Gaurd? I don't know. I'll say navy."
I grin evilly. "Nope!" Then I grab the closest pie and smash it in his face. Kian screams and I just about die laughing.
We got back and forth with the questions until each of us have answered ten.
"Well guys, you can obviously tell who the winner is!" Kian says to the camera. "Me!"
I put my head down in shame. "I can't believe you won!"
We laugh. "Yeah, well I did. Guess I'm smarter than you, huh?"
"Yeah," I mutter.
Kian turns back to the camera and does his outro. Then he cuts the camera off.
"I'm gonna go shower and edit the video before the party."
"Good idea." I say, getting up and following him into the house. I head to my room and take a quick shower, getting all the cake and pie off of me.
When I get out I put on a pair of gray, ripped skinny jeans, a black tank, and a plaid button up shirt. I put on the jeans and tank then go to straighten my hair. I was almost done when I heard a knock on my door.
"Come in!" I yell.
The door opens and I hear a voice yell, "ALEX!"
I drop the iron onto the counter. "JENN!"
We hug each other. "Oh my god! I haven't seen you since Tuesday! I thought you were dead!" Jenn says.
I laugh. "No. The guys have managed to keep me alive and well."
We laugh. The two of us gossip and catch up while I finish getting ready. When I'm done with my hair, I tie the plaid shirt around my waist and put on a pair of Converse.
Then me and Jenn head downstairs. The doorbell rings and Ricky yells, "About time! How long does it take to get ready?"
I laugh. Ricky opens the door and a bunch of new faces pour in. I stand there for a moment, preparing myself for what's to come. Then Jenn pulls me into the crowd.