DREAMS AND NIGHTMARES...

DREAMS AND NIGHMARES.... Chapter.17..

Anuj's P.O.V.....

People say movies have great effect on our thoughts; I didn't believe it until now, at this moment when my life is hanging on certain height and with one swift movement will fall in endless valley. Long ago in my teenage days I have seen a movie, I don't remember its name perfectly but it was a story about pre-independence British Prisoner in India residing in Prison which was somewhere in between Andaman and Nicobar Islands. The film was about the suffering of those prisoners. A group of prisoners decided to escape but from them only three was able to leave cellular jail, and others were dead. Those three also tried to survive but as there was no source of life or other humans living there other than people living in jail, so due to starvation one of the prisoners killed his fellow for his meat and fill up his stomach, but because of the human meat is most torrid, he died due to lack of water. It was unable for him to digest it without any source of liquid. The third one witnessed this whole scene and was shuddered to find any way further so he at last surrenders. When I saw the movie for the first time I puked by the thought of eating human meat, I wondered 'how can a human feel so helpless with hunger to at least think about it'. Today when I'm in the almost same situation, I feel, I'm blessed.

I always thought that Chapatti can only satisfy my hunger, but starvation can really damage our brain nerves and make us Zombies which can do anything to satisfy his necessities whether it is human meat. Though my case was not very extreme so I survived on Wada Pau (Indian sandwich) because I was hungry for two days only and water was adequate for my body to calm my nerves. As a human being, we cannot ignore our pschycological part, the learned and cognitive components of hunger. Unlike any other beings we humans use an external clock in our daily routine, including when to sleep and when to eat. This external time triggers our hunger. What makes human different from other beings is we eat not only to feed our bodies but to satiate our physiological hunger.

I guess, I have to spend tonight in this dismantled train compartment, thinking about the nonsensical things. with the first light of the new day will find---

"Hey can I have one???"

A strange voice broke my planning for tomorrow, I thought someone is there and I was right, there was somebody but darkness was obstacle to see his face, even moonlight didn't help much. I was terrified with the thought of Rawal's wolves which were almost on my neck today. Thanks to Gopal I didn't became their lunch, but what about now?

"Who is there? Don't try something funny I have weapon too..."

I tried to warn him though I didn't have any. It was necessary, at least for my self-satisfaction. He took some steps forward and my heart was in my mouth.

"Hey relax! I was just asking for a wadapau, nothing else buddy.."

My eyes get all bonkers to find Gopal in front of me thanks to one of the light stream leaking from the roof of the compartment. For a second I just felt to hug him tightly and never let him go but my male ego didn't allow such things to do.

"Go-Gopal,,Yo-You??"

"Ya, are you okay???"

His question blew air in me to breath, the acknowledgement that he is here, make me feel more then okay. My tongue lost the connection with my brain, I wanted him to know ,how I felt in his absence, I still don't believe that I'm saying this for a person to whom I met just before five days ,but yah I missed him... I missed you Gopal....

"I missed you..."

Shit!!! What I did? I AM SOOO STUPID, can't I just keep my thoughts to myself. Gopal sighed and smiled with , I don't know SATISFACTION????