Hold Me Close

Chapter 29

~the next morning~
[stephs p.o.v]
I have to find a new way to school. I guess I could walk, it's not that far. I'm starting to go crazy.. Here I am trying to avoid Zac, my boyfriend! We both need to chill out, especially Zac..

I am woken up by mom calling me to say she's going to work. By the time I could answer the front door had closed. My dad had already left for work so I was left alone again. I hate this so much.. Being alone in the mornings. I shook my head to wake myself up and then got in the shower. Afterwards I dried off and put on a pink sweater and blue jeans before curling my hair and putting on a beanie and my leather jacket. I've started wearing contact lenses and they are a little uncomfortable but I'll have to get used to them, I don't want to be made fun of because of my glasses. Society these days are so fucked up, you can't do what you want without being judged, it's disgusting.

After a long conversation with myself whilst eating breakfast, I left for school earlier than usual. Just as I thought things were going relatively okay, I saw Zac's car drive around the corner into my estate. See this is what I'm talking about! What is wrong with me?! 'I think you mean wнaт ιѕ wrong wιтн zac', my conscience says. I guess it's right.

Zac pulls up beside me and unlocks my door from inside his car. "Aren't you letting me pick you up?", Zac asks. "I was kind of in the mood to walk", I say bluntly. "Wow, okay. It's just.. Look at the weather", Zac raises his hand up to the grey cloud filled sky. He was right. "Look it's obviously no problem. Come on", he gestures with a smile belter climbing over and opening the door for me. That's the Zac I know and love. "Thanks babe", I said getting into the car. "You look hot, not that you don't everyday, but wow!", he says before scanning my body with his eyes. "Thank you Zac", I blush. "Your glasses! You aren't wearing them. Why?", Zac frowned. "I don't know, I wanted to wear contacts instead I guess", I shrugged my shoulders. "Well I think you look beautiful wait her way", he winks before starting the engine and we make our way to school.
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Lunch comes quicker than I expected and Zacs attitude has seemingly returned to the way it was. Let's just hope it stays like that.
Zac and I walk the perimeter of the school ground whilst talking and sharing jokes. I missed this, I'm so happy that Zac is happy.

[zacs p.o.v]
I don't know how I feel about Stephs new look. I hope she's doing it because she wants to and not just to 'impress' me. I love Steph no matter what she wears.

I'm feeling a lot better today, I haven't drank in two nights. Inside I'm dying for one but I can't give in. I guess my mom was right, I am an alcoholic. Fuck all the negative thoughts for now, we all have bad days.. Weeks... Lives...

Steph and I are reconnecting and I can feel our relationship growing stronger by the second. I love how much we have in common and that we have the same sense of humour. There's just one thing I'm worried about, which is when Beth is coming back into school, she better stay away from Steph when she does.

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When school ended I went back to Stephs house to do what we always do, homework. I can't believe how much of a dick I was to her yesterday, I guess it was the drugs. Let's hope she doesn't find out about that.
[stephs p.o.v]
When homework is done Zac and I , genuinely, watch movies. I find it a great way to end a Monday evening. After watching Edward Scissorhands it's 10pm and Zac decides to go home. I'm glad how well the evening turned out

[zacs p.o.v]
~later on that week~
Just when I thought things were going well, Steph and I have been getting into arguments non stop. Dave is trying more and more to get a hold of Stephs phone, which is really pissing me off. However what's really annoying is that she actually wants to speak to him. That's getting between us and we don't even sit beside each other at lunch now. I've seen that Steph isn't hanging around with Zoey anymore, instead she's skipping classes and going into town with the other ditchers. Trust me, I'm just as surprised, I just can't even believe it yet. Steph better not be with Dave when she ditches, god help me if she is, that's the end of our relationship. Life just gets fucking better and better, doesn't it?

As I sit on my bed watching TV, I can't stay still. The urge to drink is overwhelming, it's taking over me. My conscience tells me to stay put but the more and more I do what it says, the more tempted I am. One won't hurt.. Right?